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Coming Change
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last post: Apr 3, 2016
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Coming Change

3 Name: Anonymous : 2016-03-29 07:40
For a long time I have fought normalcy. Being tested as a high IQ haver, I reveled in it when I first found out. I took another test, because I had always believed I was someone lesser than average. Again it came out similar. I've learned to play instruments in school, I've written books and practiced poetry for most of my adult life, I like to train animals and I've got a good sense of humor.

I make a good amount of money and I'm mostly content with returning to my home each day and sitting on the computer with a beer and a cigarette. Whenever I do that I end up feeling like I'm on vacation at the beach. It doesn't take much to make me happy--I realize I am satisfied with simple things, to the point of not desiring prominence, notoriety for things I've done, or even other people honestly.

Though I'm somewhat of a melancholic person, someone preferring to practicing my chosen interests to the goal of eventual mastery and orienting myself to the opposite direction of people, I'll admit I'm largely someone who's social at heart, who's soul has been grinded away and will never return to it's full vigor. I guess that's part of the reason of why I was attracted to writing stories and chatting online from such a premature age. I feel it's both a fortunate and an unfortunate thing that I'm able to carry on like this, but I'm happy and content with my life, even if I'm a balding programmer with not much prospect or social life outside of my pet dog and annual poetry publications

It's good that your shoulders are feeling some relief though. If anything, some day you'll be able to sit on the beach with a corona in your hand and smile naturally as you take in the rays of the sun, and even perhaps open up to a point that takes you a level of breathing room where you can do something worth-while without all of that weight there in the first place

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