Any sane mind on nihilism will become depressed, only when you start gaining hope from pursuits that matter to you personally does the notion that "nothing matters" become unimportant again.
I'm a really scared guy and rarely do 'crazy shit' without thinking. Realizing I will be rotting in a small box anywhere between 7 days from now to 300 years in the future (singularity) really puts a lot of things into perspective and has motivated me to take those crazy steps I might've never taken otherwise. It probably wont kill me but I'll die with an experience that meaningfully shaped the rest of my life.
If you're reading this? Stop pitying yourself, go live your life how your lizard brain desires. Do the things worth experiencing. Just don't strawman my post into a call to play Russian Roulette because it makes you feel 'alive'.
A while ago I read a blog post by a guy who said you should follow that little voice in your head telling you not to do your homework, not to work from 9 to 5 and to just go ask that girl out and eat junkfood. Because that's what you really want at that moment.
Remember how happy you were as a kid? That's because you just did what you wanted to do practically all the time.>>15
He left 4chan for all the wrong reasons it seems.