I worry about the fact that I have no real endgoal as far as my life is concerned. I want to reach enlightenment like in Buddhism but I'm a lazy shit that always finds an excuse to put off meditating everyday, and I want to be the CEO of a tech company/play the role of a benevolent elite for my 3rd world country but I'm a lazy shit that barely studies.

Add to that the idea that I feel odd about the fact that I'm not really looking into having relationships. I mean, they seem to be more trouble than they're worth but I worry that by the time I'll want one I'll just be an inexperienced weirdo goof that hasn't really made any real friends since HS, let alone talk to girls.

tl;dr: I'm just worried that I'm not putting in the effort to accomplish the things I want out of life and I'll just be a loser stuck in his parent's house.