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I'm doing okay overall I guess but stressed about the future. I keep messing up things I wanted to do like going back to school and now I'm at a point where I have no idea what I can do anymore. I messed up my chance to go back in january and now I'm not sure if I'll be able to go back in September next year either because I am supposed to have major surgery around that time. I actually do want to improve my life and move forwards but its so hard and I just get so worried and sick about everything.