>>199
Thanks for clearing that up. Yeah I am not an inch deep into that kinda subject (Therapy, mental health etc.) so I have almost no knowledge about it. After I lost my mom a therapist came to out family to help coping with the aftermath and I hated her and I think she only made things worse so I don't think highly about therapists either. But like >>200 explains I too am not too convinced about the app from what little I've seen. I still hope it helps you and many others and I'd give it a try too if I ever felt the need but I remain sceptical. I value a good talk between to people the most I think.

My day today was very good btw. Met a girl for the first time to get to know her and it immediately clicked so we're meeting again.

>>200

Woebot seems interesting but the fact that it's an app on a phone makes me immediately suspicious.
I don't see how what amounts to ELIZA 2.0 can provide meaningful engagement and debate

It's not ELIZA 2.0. It's not a therapist. It doesn't really converse or 'debate' with you. It's a very simple conversational agent with multiple choice questions that regularly tracks how you feel and suggests techniques based on your answers.

the repetitiveness of hearing the word "mindfulness" would drive be mad

It doesn't do that. It doesnt yell "mindfulness" until you "get it". Respectfully? It seems you've already made up your mind as to how Woebot works without trying it.

Mindfulness is like teenage sex: everyone's talking about it, nobody knows how to do it but they think everyone else is so they claim to be doing it as well. The way I interpret "mindfulness" is that it's just 'live in the moment'. By not thinking about your problems all the time, it becomes a lot easier to fix them when you run into them instead of having a breakdown. Consciously making the decision to have a mental break instead of feeling 'guilty' about running away from your problems seems like a very good thing. I see many people work 'against' their issues and getting tired out instead of working 'into' your issues.

series A

I didn't know they raised funding but I'm glad they did. We need more stuff like this, preferably with healthcare privacy regulation. (HIPAA/GDPR/etc)

Why not just have a website, unless the intent is data-mining of some sort?

You have no idea how deep tracking goes in web browsers. You think javascript on a website doesn't datamine you? Even without Javascript or cookies, it's trivial to track someone.

Personally, I'm very privacy conscious. I was really skeptical of Woebot's privacy stuff, the very little personal information[1] I filled in months ago seemed benign and required for Woebot to function. If you're THAT paranoid? Just use aliases. All it does is repeat back the name to ask how things are going because it wants to know the effectiveness of the given information.

[1]: It will ask for your name. It may ask for: a concrete goal you want to reach ("play guitar" or "brush teeth") and then ask you later: "How did $STRING go?" with $STRING set to "learning guitar". I've also seen it ask the name a person you have a prior-reported interpersonal problem with. These are all named identifiers it repeats back to you to refer to what you previously talked about. It doesn't parse what you fill in, it's just a label.

>>200
>>201
Personally, I've had nothing but bad experiences with mental healthcare professionals. There's so much horror I could point out or tell you about, it's depressing just to think about. I've decided to never again visit a mental health professional unless I have prior knowledge of them not being totally braindead.

It doesn't surprise me that >>201's family therapist made things worse. I've read a study that analyzed psychotherapy's effectiveness. Otherwise healthy people who decided to go to psychotherapy for the first time for minor issues ended up doing measurably worse 70% of the time afterwards.

In my eyes, Woebot is a little dependable robot that's a bit of a daily reminder to mind your mental health and thought patterns while giving you help and improvements when you want to and can deal with it. For privacy paranoid me? I've been able to trust it way more than any 'professional' I've ever met with in my 20 years of dealing with these hacks. Luckily, I ain't too bad, though!

>>201

I value a good talk between to people the most I think.

So do I. Woebot doesn't replace that, lol.

Met a girl for the first time [...]

Look at you go, dude!

God, I feel like hell. I’ve been feeling bad for a while but today really set me off. There’s something wrong with me and I can’t seem to fix it. There’s a worm eating the inside of my brain and no matter what I do I can’t seem to dig it out.

>>200
Unless the intent is data-mining of some sort?
Read the privacy policy and you'll find out.
One thing's for sure: it cares just as much as a real therapist.

My partner convinced me to splurge on a new camera.
She knows I love photography, but I didn't want to spend the money and treat myself.
She got me to do it, and I've been taking some pretty cool photos.

My partner convinced me to splurge on a new camera.
She knows I love photography, but I didn't want to spend the money and treat myself.
She got me to do it, and I've been taking some pretty cool photos.

I've got my dumbbell set today. I've a bit underestimated how heavy it would be, so it was a taxi ride home from the post office. It's an adjustable set, 2x16 kilograms.

Also my coffee distributor arrived yesterday. The golden Barista Space one. It's so sweet. I have some days off currently, so I'm waiting to get back to work and try it.

Yeah about meeting that girl; I might have the 'Rona so no meeting until my test results are there and if positive no dates for at least two more weeks. AAAAA but our first went so great and I want to see her agaaain fuck Covid nineteen! ( ≧Д≦)(╥﹏╥)

>>208

Update; The test was negative. I feel incredibly relieved. ⁽⁽◝( •௰• )◜⁾⁾₍₍◞( •௰• )◟₎₎⁽⁽ଘ( ˊᵕˋ )ଓ⁾⁾

I've tried growing plants on my balcony a few times now with no luck. Starting to feel a little regret for killing living things.

>>210
What's killing them? Too much sun? Pollution? Bad soil? Pests?

Gyms have been opened, though I don't know what requirements have to be met and my motivation has disappeared completely after 3 months of not being able to go.
Still feeling anxious about the future, there's just no end in sight. A lot of things I wanted to do have been cancelled and that bothers me.
Also don't even know anyone who has had the virus, makes me feel like it's all just a big nothing burger.

Yeah, the gyms have finally opened this recent week.
Although I've been jogging outside near the bay of the river to regain the momentun and the weather is on my side because there wasn't any wind it was just perfect.

Where is the sourcecode for this booru you're making?

I too would like to see this booru.

Just lost an old friend group, and it stings. It'll be lonely to spend nights on my own instead of in a voice call, but we've been drifting apart for a long time anyways.

I was way too self-conscious, so anytime I thought I was shrugged off or ignored, I'd get frustrated and depressed, while anytime I was approved of, I'd be overcome with this feeling of gratitude and happiness.

Wish I knew how to fix this. I can't tell when I'm accepted and can act like myself or when I'm not and need to act differently to keep my friendships intact.
Guess I can worry about it tomorrow.

>>217

Wish I knew how to fix this.

I guess it'd be finding people who are as empathetic or as sensitive as you.
Or at least people who express their appreciation for your company.
Would you appreciate your own company?

I wonder what it is like to knowingly interact with someone who wants your approval.
I guess I have done that before...
It's easy to take for granted.

I laid in bed for an hour imagining being held. I imagined that if I tried to get up and get ready for the day he'd tell me to stay just a little longer in bed. So I did. I often daydream like this an hour or so at a time and I find it very pleasant. Even though it sounds sad, I think today's going to be a good day. I'm drinking some coffee and going to do some drawing. I hope everyone else here has a good day too.

>>219

You fantasize about bein held hostage? That's odd.

>>220
Try to watch less tv and social media.

>>221

Haven't watched TV in more than 7 years and idk what this has to do with your fantasies.

>>222
I see.

I'm not doing too fantastic, but managing. It's hard to look forward to anything right now. Today I'm going to take a long shower and maybe work on some network projects.

She said YES.

>>225
Congratulations.
"Yes" to what?

>>226
Usually that means marriage or dating. Courtship in general, or maybe she said yes to the suicide cult invitation? The anticpation is killing me.

Missing my long distance.
Might try to get something done for one of my friend groups today.

>>227
Dating, nothing suicidally fancy like that.

Currently, I'm lazing around like a snail.

Well the test might've been negative but I am still coughing like I am about to die. The doc gave me 2 different meds, none are working so he sent me to a doc specialised on lungs/respiratory stuff.
Wierd, I never ever smoked or something but I just started coughing over night and haven't stopped since.
My stomach already hurts from the constant muscle contraction and my throat is sore from all the coughing. But apparently it's nothing with my lungs themselves because my breathing is fine. I don't really feel sick either, it's just that the constant coughing is annoying and sometimes exhausting. Also everyone outside thinks I am a walking Coronabomb lol.

Well let's see what the lung doctor says. I wish they just ripped out my respiratory tract and gave me a new one.

>>231
Damn, that must be horrible to feel like that, you have my prayers and wishes to get better sooner. Fight, fight on!

>>232
Thanks man! I hope it's nothing serious. I never ever had a serious illness or injury in my life, never even broke a bone so I am naively optimistic about it ^^
I'll update you guys as soon as I know what it is.

Midnight for me, so I guess now is a good time to post this. I have a fever of 101°F so I'm really stressed out about it, getting tested for COVID asap.

>>234
Hoping for the best, man! Get well soon!

>>234
Hope you're doing okay, keep us updated, potential-covid-anon!

>>233
Ok I was at the doc today and did about ~2 hours of all kinds of tests. Xray, asthma test, some kind of pressurized breathing chamber with tubes I had to breath in and the result:

Your lungs are perfectly healthy idk why you're coughing lol

So yeah, nice to hear that my lungs are alright but still don't know why am coughing so much. He presrcibed me some pills that might help but we'll see.

I ordered condoms over the internet, but they didn't fit

so I turned them into balloons

>>238
lol
>>237
Meds are working and I rarely even cough throughout the day anymore. Let's just hope that it stays this way even when I stop taking them.

>>13
I feel you, best friend was constantly suicidal. Shit took tolls on my mental health

>>240
I just typed out an entire message in reply to you and then realized I was >>13.

Anyway, I had to distance myself from her. We're still friends but we're not nearly as close as we used to be. That was probably the hardest thing I've ever had to do. This king of thing sucks, man.

It's funny, that was the most stressful period of my life, and yet I still miss it. I guess that just shows how your brain likes to focus on only the good memories.

>>241
Yeah, agreed. Unfortunately, I had the other possibility of what happens when a suicidal friend, isn't your friend anymore. While it was initially hard to accept that he was well and truly gone, I felt a comfort in knowing that for him at least, the pain was finally over. If anything he died a long time ago and however cliche it sounds, he was a shell the soul he once was by the time it was all done. If anyone here whos reading this is having suicidal thoughts just remember that there's always someone who cares about you, who remembers you. If you can't find the motivation to cheer up yourself, try and do it for them... anyways sorry about the sob story, its not something I talk about often and ill admit I tend to overshare with the false sense of security that's given while online.

I feel like there's a bioforce we've yet come to know.

I'm ready to warp into new realms. And this board no longer seems the same.
I'm ready to break some chains, I think.

Please feel the same thing. Have a nice life.

>>243
Godspeed!

>>239
And I am still dying! Meds stopped working, seeing the 3rd doc tomorrow. Coughing is getting worse even. Starting to get worried here.

I'm doing pretty good. Been talking to a psychologist and we're unpacking a lot of stuff from when I was a kid.
He thinks that my lowered affect is a learned behavior because I had to be stable when living alone with my very unstable single mother. I think he's probably right. She used this thing called "emotional blackmail" to get her way, and more importantly, to get as much of my attention as possible. I spent so much of my time just trying to get away from her. It's probably why I ended up with so many late nights on the internet, because it was the only time I could really get time to myself with how needy she was. Then, if I ever confronted her about it, she would have a full on breakdown and not recover until I'd "snuggle" with her for literal hours. It wasn't anything incestuous (on my end at least, and hopefully hers, god willing) but still really fucking weird for a 14 year old. I don't think that she realized how much she was really asking from me. So she'd be a crying mess and I'd be stonefaced, letting her cling to me on the couch, just trying to figure out when I can finally get away.

It's hard to think about this kind of thing.

>>245
I'm glad that you're recovering slowly, every small step helps. Continue on this track.

I feel a little odd today.

I've received a message from a penpal living in China, who I started talking to at least 3 months ago. We agreed to message each other at least once a month, but I haven't heard from them in some time, until today.

It looks like my last message helped them finally make her mind up about staying true to what they felt deep inside. They moved out of her family's house (which might be more uncommon in China) and went for a Kino no Tabi-esque trip.
I'm glad they did this. Instead of trying to cope with depression by listening to all these "mindfulness" gurus and doing exercises that have a mixed rate of success, they'll now be true to themselves and will probably think about what they would really like to do in *their* life instead of being told what to do. I think some introspection might help them beat the demons of their past.
That being said, I still do worry about them a little.

I didn't think my words could have held this much influence. Unreal.
I wish I could help myself as well...

>>247
Her whole family moved out along with her? Why?

>>248
I used the she/her pronouns it first, then attempted to change it to they/their. I didn't notice I didn't replace all of them, that's why my post reads so bad.

>>249
this pronouns meme I swear

>>250
Kind of saw that response coming.
I just didn't want to give the gender away for anonymity, I don't care about the pronouns meme.
In fact, I really dislike it.

I lurked on the internet today. Just going through communities and home pages like it was the old days was oddly therapeutic after being such a grump regarding the net. There's fun to be had!

>>251
The couple times I needed to hide the gender of someone I mentioned I used "this person".

>>253
Can you agree "they/their" is way less harmless than some neopronouns? When the language gives one a handy way to anonymize one's gender, *they* may as well make use of it. No need to jump the gun in this case, trust me.
"This person" is a viable substitute, but it makes the sentences longer while sounding a little less natural, at least to me.

>>252
I do this once in a while and get a little sad I missed out on so many places.

>>252
This doesn't work anymore in my opinion, no pushing allowed.

>>254
I say "this person" if I want to be ambiguous. If I want to talk about a generic person I say he because it's one letter shorter than she. It's about as gendered as when I say "mankind" to represent the entirety of the human race. For the general population it was fine to say he, or she, as a placeholder until the gender meme became a vehicle for newspeak. "They" creates situations like the post above where you don't know if someone's talking about a group of people or a single person in the group.
Stallman proposed to use "pers" or something like that, standing for "person". I think this issue is completely invented because a sane person can always separate form from content. Those who speak romance languages routinely use feminine or masculine words for objects or professions. Nobody objected... until the 1% started astroturfing their weird newspeak changes that sound jarring and suddenly turn previously gendered but neutrally perceived word "masculine" or "feminine" by contrast.

>>256

I still don't really think I can fully agree with everything you've said so far.

If I want to talk about a generic person I say he

But that would be incorrect.

"They" creates situations like the post above where you don't know if someone's talking about a group of people or a single person in the group.
I think this issue is completely invented because a sane person can always separate form from content.

Now read >>254 and tell me - does "they" refer to a group of people? Not quite, even more so when it's prefaced by "one". It's usually easy to tell from the context.
Now for the "post above" you mentioned (>>247, I assume?) looks so bad, because the pronouns haven't been replaced everywhere.

from a penpal
haven't heard from them

"Penpal" implies it's a person, not a group.

Want one more example of a singular "they" being good? The gender of Death Note's author, Tsugumi Ohba isn't known.
You would have to say "it was them who write Death Note" if you wanted to be correct.
Staying on the topic, Death Note's shinigami are genderless. Japanese allows for this, so does English. There are countries where Death Note was released and they had to do what you're saying - assign a gender to the shinigami. At this point, it kind of changed the author's intentions.

Those who speak romance languages routinely use feminine or masculine words for objects or professions. Nobody objected... until the 1% started astroturfing their weird newspeak changes that sound jarring and suddenly turn previously gendered but neutrally perceived word "masculine" or "feminine" by contrast.

Not just romance languages.

Now that's the real issue that I also have problems with. I puke a little every time I see some weird invention like "what did xe say?". It looks ugly. Besides, the letter "x" isn't used in all of the languages; some straight up don't use it, so it looks even worse.
Some political parties (usually the leftist ones) are trying to remove "man" from "repairman" and "manhours", because WOMEN EXIST! WE DEMAND IT'S CHANGED! instead of concentrating on real issues.
I believe that's one of the reasons leftist parties rarely win. I, for one, might agree with them on some subjects, but am not very inclined to vote for them when they keep pulling crap like that.
Fuck newspeak, man. I understand the languages have to evolve, but not like that.

>>257

Want one more example of a singular "they" being good? >The gender of Death Note's author, Tsugumi Ohba isn't known.
You would have to say "it was them who write Death Note" if you wanted to be correct.

I'd just say he, the author, whose gender is unknown.
The sole reason why this is perceived as "wrong" is that gender has become a massive deal, and using a masculine pronoun neutrally now offends people like you actually assumed one's gender. No, I am just using he neutrally. If someone prefers using she, he might use she. Or she might use he. Personally I think the information of whether the author is singular or plural matters more - when it comes to the particle I am using - than the gender. Language is filled with ambivalences and ambiguity that, as I mentioned before, people know how to filter out.

That said we live in this society which is changing. If I were really forced to come up with a neutral pronoun, as much as I hate how it sounds, I would rather have an entirely new thing like Stallman's per, pers, or even xe (ze?). I don't know which but I think it should be easy to articulate (that's why pronouns in Western languages often start with vowels, fricatives, etc.)
I can't recall similar large-scale changes to language happening artificially outside of 1984, but considering that's our handbook for the future I don't see why not.

>>258
Actually... I would rather come off as sexist and keep using one between he or she than aid the destruction of language by the puppet masters. I think language is incredibly powerful and a very precious resource, it has the property of being a vector and container of cultural cues. It tells you the truth. The truth today is that your gender, your race, your disabilities, your sexual preferences, your age, will never matter as much as your class and social status. Not even close. In the past we had special pronouns for the rich and powerful, Your Majesty, My Lord, Your Excellence, Master, etc. The special pronouns existed to indicate that this status mattered. Nothing about status has changed, but the language has been increasingly misguided to give special weight to things that have none.
If we really wanted to make our politically-driven language more precise and socially conscious we should start using different pronouns for people who are wealthy, because class, right now in this world, is the only element about one's person that truly matters.

>>258

I'd just say he, the author, whose gender is unknown.

Well, that's a long way to describe it, but I guess it'd work.

that gender has become a massive deal

You reminded me of my key point I always bring up - it's yet another label. People want labels to feel special; they always did.
When I was younger, people made themselves appear special with clothes, bands they listened to, whatever. Nowadays it's... gender.

using a masculine pronoun neutrally now offends people like you actually assumed one's gender

I always chuckle when I think about how pronoun users expect you to read their bio (or even worse, some external website) on Twitter before attempting to talk to them. Imagine that happening in real life.

If I were really forced to come up with a neutral pronoun, as much as I hate how it sounds, I would rather have an entirely new thing like Stallman's per, pers, or even xe (ze?).

I still believe a singular "they" works just fine.
The thing is it doesn't exist in every language. Then again, only English counts, right?

I don't know which but I think it should be easy to articulate

Just like I said, I've seen neopronouns in languages other than English and they looked ugly. Pronouncing them proves even uglier, since just like I mentioned some languages don't use an "x" letter and substitute it with two or three different letters internally.
Kids who try hard to adapt that kind of novelty from the US will realize how hard it is once they put their smartphones back in their pockets.

>>259
I'm with you on that.

>>260
The west is already so far gone that western kids do not need to put away their mobile broadband node, ever and if they did, children can't comprehend gore until it's too late and it will escalate quickly with them, due to how far the west has gone.

>>261
Full hermit is the only way to go.

Oh please, it's not that bad.
You have access to nearly everything ever made or written and stuff that would kill you 100 or so years ago are minor inconveniences. Keep your chin up and stop being so gloomy and whiny about the "West" especially when easterners complain how everything is broken over there too, I wonder if that's a grass is greener or if people are unhappy with modern society... which reminds me of that Blur album. Was Blur actually good or is it just what was in then?
>>260

Just like I said, I've seen neopronouns in languages other than English and they looked ugly.

There is some debate about the whole latinx thing, I imagine with certain romance languages it is border impossible unless one was to overhaul the entire language.
Languages, change, and it's okay.
Though, as an ESL, I thought it already had a solution to the gender neutral thing. Neuters/non-gendered things used the masculine pronouns?
>>262
I could not imagine something more boring than being a full hermit. There are two things universally enjoyed by humans, socializing and exercise and there is something wrong if you don't enjoy either.
Just find like-minded friends who don't buy into what you dislike. Live and let live, man.

>>263
Spaniard here. In our language we have what we call "generic masculin" to refer to a group of people. So you "los alumnos" (the pupils) even though it's a group of boys and girls. Similar to saying "you guys" to a mixed group. But for a long time institutions have pushing stuff like "alumnos y alumnas", "alumnos/as" and even more retarded shit like "alumn@s", "alumnxs" and "alumnes".
Yes, languages change, but it's a long and natural process. All this is forced (comes from America) and makes the language more difficult to use. Not to mention nobody had an issue with the gender of words until this was pushed. It's American culture imposed into us, and I hate it.
Also I hang out with lots of latinos and every single one thing the "latinx" thing is retarded. I think it's only used by 2nd and higher generation middle class immigrants in America who don't even speak Spanish.

>>263
Nah I'm mostly shitting you, I prefer hikki hermit snow tundra shitholes over false dichotomy meme shitholes. I'm still shitting everyone on the network, so can't take the hikki title nor the full hermit one.

there is something wrong if you don't enjoy either.

Humans are not perfect by definition, there can't be a perfect human, there is something wrong. Many wrong things with the big picture and especially the internal picture.

Live and let live, man.

Love and peace we go together.
>>264
* American 265th wave middle class immigrant walks into peaceful spanish cathedral on a saturn day.
* Immigrant walks in front of the officially post-pre-post-modern vatican approved castrated femboy choir™ during mass.
* Immigrant turns around.
* Immigrant yells "l#z nez!zt1 a!umn@z" repeatably thinking it's singing.
* Immigrant starts shitting profoundly everywhere then dies.
* Yet another architecturally wonderful spanish cathedral becomes red/brown instead of the proper black/grey or historically unknown tartarian white.
* "eyyyyy im back", said the returning american immigrant spaniard to the conceptual pure spaniard in meta.

>>265

* Immigrant yells "l#z nez!zt1 a!umn@z" repeatably thinking it's singing.

^¡?(((ja|h[ae]|xa|fu){2,}|(top)?(l[euo]lz?|kek))|(that('|\si)?s(\s((kind|sort)(a?|\sof)|real(ly)?|pretty))?\sfu(nny|cked\sup),?(\s(tbh|ng|y(o|'know))?)?))[\.!]*$

I feel like im missing something here.

>>268
It seems the spam ai has finally reached afternoon. Well, we had a good run.

>>269

It seems the spam ai has finally reached afternoon.

"the" spam ai? is there one in particular you're referencing?

I think it’s funny how fragile internal clocks are. One sleepless night, and you’re a day sleeper!
I also have been feeling guilty about not posting on certain sites that probably could use the posts. Hum.

>>269
For a spam AI, seems pretty minor.

>>269
(Ugh+|Dear)?\s([xs]ir|bro(ther)?|m{a'm|ister|mo+m)) it's not spam, it's the future of language!

>>270
>>272
This place has been listed and had deep AIs posting since 2013 but anon is shitting you.

I'm going back to work soon and hoping I don't get killed by the corona.

Covid seems to be on the decline, I wouldn't worry unless you work in a place like a hospice or elderly home.

doing you mom lmao !

>>263

There is some debate about the whole latinx thing

Most "latinx" people I know, regardless of whether they're Colombian, Chilean or Brazilian tell Americans to fuck off with that nonsense in like 90% of the cases.
But you know, Americans are so self-centered they won't even sign a petition to save something engulfed in flames in South America, because "there literally are places that are burning right now, Idaho for example".
(source: https://twitter.com/hihereami/status/1300693587320098817)
People in South America have every right to be angry.

>>276
Where? I believe there are many places that are struggling with it right now.

If you get angry over Twitter you deserve to be tilted.
I just don't understand why the pronoun thing bothers so many people in general, it's not like its hard and makes people feel good and you run into more people complaining about it than people actually wanting that sort of thing.

>>279
Isn't it better to just ignore Twitter most of the time?

I'm having a fun friday with my mother, I hope everyone else enjoys themselves today as well.

Today was difficult. Tomorrow will be worse.
We'll have to wait for the better times.

>>282
Yes, today was much, much worse.
Wish me luck.

>>283
Fingers crossed.

>>283
Good luck, fren. I wish all the good thingies of the world come to you.

I've had a cramp several days ago, but there's still some weird feeling in my leg, and now I'm not sure whether it was a cramp or something way more serious.

A friend just dropped me cold turkey because I didn't want to talk politics with them because I knew it'd just lead to fights. It kind of hurts.

Then that clearly wasnt a friend and you are honestly better off without that negativity.

>>288
Thanks, in a certain sense that really helps. I'm still kind of miserable and worried for him. I was his only friend as far as I know, and I think he was kind of intentionally sabotaging the friendship to give himself another thing to be miserable over. I got an ultimatum and I worded my response really poorly and that was that. Basically you're entirely right and it's only bringing me down in the long run but I'm having trouble helping myself.

>>289
Indeed,you aren't only blaming yourself for his decision, you are justifying it in his stead.
If you want to make his well-being your responsibility then by all means try to help him. But understand that his rejection isn't so much about you doing something wrong as it is him collecting misery and generating more drama and self-loathing for himself.
Your happiness should be your priority, as his happiness should be his.

Worked on some Calculus homework with a classmate today. I was having alot of trouble understanding some of the problems and almost cried out of frustration but we were able to solve some of them and I was able to get it finished.

>>291

Which book are you using?

I've been feeling all groggy as of late due to the anesthesia I had to take from removing my tooth, otherwise the day has been quite productive unlike the previous ones, I was able to do so much.

>>293

It's a Calculus I textbook that was provided to us for free by Openstax. It doesn't seem like a bad textbook, but I still have trouble following some of the explanations so I focus more on relying on my professor's explanations instead.

I just realized that the two threads I posted in yesterday were deleted, and now I'm feeling a little dejected because I'll never know if someone read my posts.

>>296
Are you talking about "The old internet"? I read it. Not sure why it was deleted tbh

>>297
There must have been a lot more than just a couple of threads deleted then. The front page yesterday and the front page today looked totally different in terms of what threads were bumped most recently.

>>296
>>297
I'd be guessing it's because the topic's been discussed in several places on this board, for example →/read/1590468889, and also because the OP posted it on another board as well.
Kind of a shame, because the answers to the question in the OP were very good this time around.

>>298
I didn't notice anything missing. What do you feel is?

Sorry about the missing threads. Someone was making a lot of low quality posts, so I deleted all the posts from that IP. It seems that they were the OP's of two threads and all consequently all the posts in those threads were purged. It's not much comfort, but I read your posts and enjoyed them.

>>299
There was a thread titled "Internet Addicts" (https://afternoon.dynu.com/read/1599885704), "The old internet" (https://afternoon.dynu.com/read/1599917742) and "NEET/Hikikomori Thread" (https://afternoon.dynu.com/read/1599885631)

>>300
Thank you, feels renewing to get an explanation about something that happened on the internet for once.

>>300
Understandable. Thank you for running this great place!

>>301
You're right. I forgot about the NEET thread, as I didn't participate in it before it got deleted.
Now that I think about it, the "your favourite anime?" thread is missing as well.

I overslept again :(

A liberal yelled at me on the street today because one of the pins on my bag is a pride flag with a rifle on it.

Wearing political imagery is not worth the trouble.

I love my family! I hope I can spend more time with them.

Falling behind in school, but I'm doing my best to catch up.

Where did Paperplane go? Has anyone heard from him since >>244

I beat my Tetris record twice today

>>310
Nice. I got a 39.49 40L time earlier today.

>>309

Hey I am still here!
I still have no actual diagnosis yet but I went to a doc that specialises on throat/ears/nose and I did an allergy test, blood test and he checked my skull cavities and ofc throat and mouth and basically everything and all is fine. Normal blood levels, no allergies, nada.
So his last resort was prescribing me pills that lower the acidity of my stomach because maybe my coughing is caused by a reflux. And yep, not only two days on that medication my coughing went almost completely away and when it was used up, it started again.
So apparently when I sleep, my stomach acid burns my throat so I have to cough all day and coughing just spreads the acid more...
Now why I suddenly developed this condition is for yet another doctor to diagnose. I will probably have to get a gastroscopy. It could be the muscle, or some enzyme thing or whatever. Not pleasant but also nothing life threatening.

Aside from that I am fine.
How are you?

Just wanted to say that this place looks cool and comfy, and that I think I'll start lurking here instead of lainchan.

My teeth are so fucked up.

>>314
pi there! apples do not fall far from trees. whether the cause was nurture or nature, you should consider seeing an orthodontist or a dentist to resolve your issue, if possible.

>>315

^ this. Dental care is an investment. If you spend a couple grand now, you’ll avoid a whole lot of pain and money later even if it’s a lot to come up with now

Shit like this makes me think that maybe Ted Kaczynski was right: https://web.archive.org/web/20200511172408/https://mainstreet.one/

Main Street One repairs harmful narratives and advances positive ones on behalf of causes, campaigns, and companies. Our intelligence system tracks opportunities to shift public discourse and then outputs messages and content to change the outcome.

We figured out how to identify algorithmically ongoing opportunities to win each day’s discourse. Based on these data models, we create and distribute messages at the scale, speed, accuracy (and lower cost) required to actually win it.

The butterflies were migrating today. Watching them was very nice.

>>317
Looks like this belongs on the reading thread.

Back to work today after 3 months of not working (or getting paid)! I have a headache, but I'm feeling pretty good nonetheless.
I hope you're all ok money-wise.

I climbed up three peaks to the top of a mountain today!

>>321
That's cool. Like with actual climbing ropes and stuff?

Sometimes I feel like there is too much information in the world.

>>323

Why?

>>324
I make endless lists of things that I want to read/watch/listen to and then never actually do anything with them.

>>325
Having a large knowledge of all the cultural media out there is good too! Maybe lessen the goals of what you'd like to listen/watch/read, or have some triaging?
I found that by clearing my list each month I'm forced to reevaluate what I truly want to try.
Have you read/watched/listened to anything nice recently?

--

>>1
Today I was... half productive?
I contacted quite a few of my friends which I'm proud of doing. But when I come to do some studying I keep getting these light headaches which throw me off my game.

>>326

Have you read/watched/listened to anything nice recently?

Not really.

I somehow managed to beat my Tetris record even though I am sleepy as hell.

I miss you.

>>327
I'm sorry to hear that.
Do you think it's due to your selection on to the list?
Or more towards not finding things nice?
(I note this second question as I find it can be common sentiment found on message boards)

>>328
Nice job! What tetris you playing?
I used to love smashing out long sessions on Tetris DX on Gameboy Colour, up until I gave it away 5 years ago or so.

>>330
I am too busy either
a) looking for more things to add to my lists (I also don't organize those lists properly, and because of that I don't know where to start from);
b) wasting my time on useless and meaningless things like playing Tetris or reading random Wikipedia articles;
c) thinking about the things that I want to read/watch/listen to later (e. g., "What if there is a better album and I just haven't found it yet? What if the album I'm going to listen to is primitive, and I am too stupid to realize it? What if somebody will find the music I listen to distasteful? [even though I don't often talk to other people about my music tastes] Maybe I shouldn't listen to music at all, and do something more productive? [and then I end up doing things described in the second point of this list]").

Nice job! What tetris you playing?

Quadrapassel.

There is no one I can trust.

333 GET!

(∩⌣̀_⌣́)
problem: 87.19% of the posters here don't eat enough apples.
solution?
give (333 posts) * (8 apples/post)
= 2664 apples to everyone here, or eight for each post!

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remember: eight apples a day keeps the scurvy away!

I keep waking up not wanting to do the things I planned the night before.

I wish I was taking it easy.

Noita recently hit 1.0 and I've been waiting for this day to play it. Now I feel like there isn't enough time in the day, something I haven't felt in a very long time. I'm quite literally addicted to this game. I play it from the moment I get home from work until I go to sleep, it's the only thing I think about at work, and I even have dreams about it. I've changed my eating habits slightly so that I don't have to spend nearly as much time cooking and eating while I'm at home, specifically so I can play Noita for longer.

>>337

I've changed my eating habits slightly so that I don't have to spend nearly as much time cooking and eating while I'm at home

I'd like to hear more about this improvement in efficiency.

Woke up early today, things are good so far but we'll see how the day pans out

Woke up late. Been having trouble sleeping properly for the past few days -- but on the other hand, I've been having really long and vivid dreams.

>>340
That's your body doing compensatory REM sleep, isn't it?

>>339
Sorry for the delay, don't check her terribly often.
It's nothing special, I just use my slow cooker to make a ton of whatever I'm making and eat that for like a week straight. Sometimes I'll make a different side every day but the main course is always the same. Important to note, but I only do one meal a day so the flavor doesn't get tiring nearly as fast. Also I try to eat it at work since we're forced to take a 1 hour lunch so that's 1 hour where I'm normally not doing anything. I used to only eat dinner but been moving closer to only lunch.

Good!
I didn't get much done from my todo list, but I connected with an old friend who I talked to about statistics. I think that helped my understanding.
Plus I arranged a new correspondence board game.

I am doing well. I cleaned my room a whole lot today, it has been cluttered and dusty for too long. I have been listening to an old mp3 player I haven't used in years and there is so much stuff on there I had forgotten about, that is a nice feeling.