>>74
>>75
You're alright, I don't consider it a littering post at all. I can relate with you a lot. I believe I'm suffering from a lot of similar things as you anon. I was always treated in the same manner growing up as a "bad influence" and often wouldn't be allowed to hang out with friends that I had outside of school. Now I have no friends and haven't amounted to anything wasting away with life passing me by in my early 30s. I'm probably dealing with psychosis myself as I question reality almost on a daily basis now. I'm not sure I was ever a functional human being at this point as well. I have extreme paranoia episodes on a daily basis where I'll literally freak out thinking that something is out to get me then I lay in the floor crying for anywhere between 30 minutes to an hour. I've thought about trying to seek out help as I'm not able to hold a job for more than a few weeks then taking months to even years without even looking for another one. This isn't a stable life to life and I'm more a burden to those willing to support me than anything else. Also who knows how much longer this can continue...