Now I'm all packed and I feel sad.

Does anyone know what happened to /bun/? It says they were compromised and to run virus scans if you visited in the last 24 hours but nothing about what exactly happened. I could probably find out in their IRC but real-time communication is scary

On my commute a few days ago I passed a wheat field. This field was harvested in late autumn I guess, and there are small stalks, a foot and a half high, growing back up. That morning, a flock of birds had lit on the field. One bird on each stalk. I wanted to stop and take a photograph but I probably would have just scared them off.
On my commute a different few days ago, it was pretty foggy. As I approached the bridge, the sign indicating that there's traffic information on the transportation department's AM radio station was blinking, and I decided to turn it on, even though I knew it would just tell me that it was foggy and drivers should exercise caution on the bridge. The station was weak with regular interruptions from other stations and the repeating tape of the announcer was distant and monotone. I left it on the entire trip.
Driving is only part of my life that interests me right now. There's something really special about being between places.

The Morning the city was foggy and sleepy. It all looked and felt so mysterious. You could hear and see cars and people and headlights, but each only for a moment as they passed quickly in and out of the fogg.

Lots of fluffy pure white snow has fallen.

〠

Today I feel really good about class. I was attentive for the whole time, found the lecture really interesting, and took really good notes. Somehow I feel really good about myself!

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I got to take part in a life drawing class today, it's something I've been wanting to do for ages and I can finally do it on a regular basis. It wasn't weird at all, I guess I'm used to drawing nude people anyway so I didn't really care. It was a great atmosphere to work in, at home I get so distracted by the internet and things but there I happily drew for hours straight. Next week is a single long pose which might test my patience but I need to get out of my comfort zone and seriously render something instead of doing line drawings all the time. Next week I'm going to try get there not-late and maybe even talk to some grills.

I noticed the other day that it was pretty light out when I was coming home, it's been pitch black for ages so hopefully the winter will sod off soon.

Today I got to sit and eat with the Japanese kids at my uni. We talked for a long time about Japanese and English words for political subjects, food, and animals. There was also a girl from China who informed us that it's pretty much normal for Chinese to eat damn near anything. Dog, cat, snake, bats, owls, bears. Bear is exspensive though. I told her one one of my favorite animals was a pangolin. She responded by showing me a photo of pangolin soup.
They also invited me to later eat okonomiyaki with bacon, cabbage, and some kind of Japanese sauce. We talked about all kinds of English things, school, laws, crime, Pokemon. For some reason they were *amazed* by a 3DS, and used mine to take 3D pictures of each other. I asked "This comes from YOUR country, why are you so amazed by it?" They just said none of them had seen one before. Hunh.
I had a lot of fun and I got to learn a little Japanese. It was snowing when I left their dorms to go back to mine.
This was a nice night.

I talked to my crush today! It was only for a little while but I made him laugh a lot and he made me laugh and all in all it felt really nice. I really hope I can talk to him tomorrow, too.

This morning, I woke up early, threw open my window, and thought to myself for the first time in a long while that I shouldn't be so defeatist, that I still can seize happiness in my circumstances and move on with my life if I just stop assuming the worst of everything. All this, two seconds before I checked my email and found out that my counselor's advice to drop the single credit (required) online fitness course from my schedule put me exactly one credit below the requirement for being a fulltime student. Told me that it's always better to take it in the spring, so I can join a physical class that meets and jogs. Part time tuition is a little less, but I just got slammed with a thousand dollar bill to basically recall a certain percentage of my financial aid now that I'm part time. This is coming in the middle of the term, no hope of adjusting my schedule.

I was already having money trouble paying for school, and the family I have left were refusing to help me there. I just don't know what to do, I guess. Coming here and escaping my family and working myself to get good grades and a shitty job weren't enough, and now I just feel like I'm going to end up with nowhere to go and a lap full of student loans. And I have nobody to blame but myself. I know this thread is usually for happy hopeful life sharing, but I really need to say something, somewhere, anonymously, to anyone.

>>313
Your councillor should have know this. They messed this up. Be proactive and go talk to them about it. And go seek a meeting with a fin-aid officer at your school to get back into the class and fix it.

>>313
Hang in there, friend. I think >>314 has the right idea. I am sure there are people at your school that can help you remedy this mistake.

REPORTING FROM PORTLAND MAINE ON POST OFFICE TV
There is a huge snow storm coming up the East coast of the United States. Schools have be canceled and pre-Valentines day plans have been ruined for many!

Happy V-Day!

Today there was ~7 inches of snow on the ground from the last two days, but it was in the upper 50s. I played with my dog outside for a while. Tried to make a snowman with my bare hands, but snow is still really cold and wet, even if it's warm outside.

New job!

Today is really nice. Yesterday I went out with my boyfriend. We went to Bull Moose Music, where I got Pokemon cards and two Ghost in the Shell DVDs I was missing. He got a Sherlock DVD. Then we went to Casablanca Comics and I got a Yotsubato volume I was missing and a Totoro doll.

Tonight I'm eating sushi and drinking craft beer. My life problems can wait, I have to enjoy myself for a little while.

I just came from a friend's house, we drink a lot and I forgot about all the bad stuff for some moment. It was nice.

>>319

Good for you, man.

Today is my birthday. Happy birthday to me. I am twenty three.

>>324
Congratulations!! I hope you have a very relaxed day.

Looking for other nice messageboards? I made a simple overchan to have all the boards I frequently visit in a single place.

→/overchan/

Some of the boards are quiet, but really nice places that deserve a bit more exposition. Others are already quite popular and too fun to miss out on. The QUALITY boards are for reading out loud to yourself with a stern voice. Give it a try!

>>326
Oh cool, thank you.

Yesterday, I visited a friend that I haven't talked to or seen in a year and a half. Although my stay was very short, I felt like we had so much to talk about. So much has changed since we last met; some of our friends are overseas, some are busy working, some play games all day, and one even got all four of his wisdom teeth pulled out. He looked really swollen and painful. Time really does fly by. It makes me wonder how my old classmates from 3rd grade are doing, and what kind of people we will all become in the next few years. I hope I change for the better.

>>324
Happy Birthday! I hope you enjoy another year of your life!

>>328
I'm starting to feel like my teeth are crowding. Above all, dentists can't be trusted.

Classrooms are like coinpurses that are eventually torn open, sending us flying into small crevices of life's furniture. I hope you are made of strong enough metal not to break in whatever pocket you find yourself in.

>>329
I've never had any `coinpurse' of mine torn open. How many pennies do you need to carry with you in the street?

Enough to make the guy in line behind you think, "is this guy a retired old lady or something? Why are you counting them out so slow?"

You gotta be the catalyst if you want to see them pennies fly.

Do you ever have those days were you get a whole lot done and feel really good about it?

Yeaah.

>>332
I am currently having one of those days where I get nothing done but still manage to feel pretty good about it.

>>333
Yesterday I got more done than average but didn't feel too good, since it made me realize how much time I spend jerking off (figuratively). My mood that night might have been better if I just phoned it in all day. The lesson is to take it easy.

Today I spent ~1.5 hours making the perfect little gingerbread house and then I messed up and it exploded on the floor. I managed to save around half of it but the formerly magnificent roof was reduced to shambles.

Mi 傘 es su 傘.

Mi 傘 es su 傘.

Today I went to Martial arts club. It felt really good to be active again.

I just discovered Vimperator. My life will never be the same.

>>339
People have said that pentadactyl is better, but I don't really notice a difference. Also, luakit uses mostly the same binds and is its own browser, which is nice on a toaster like mine where firefox extensions mean my CPU is going to melt. It's so nice not having to move your hand to your mouse so often, though.

Don't use Vim! It's a trap!!

>>340
Pentadactyl isn't available for my Firefox Build ;_;
On my linux machine, I'll look into luakit!

I gave a note to my crush saying I like him. It's a five-day weekend this weekend so I won't know his response until Thursday but I really hope it's the one I want (the one where he says he likes me back).

>>343
Are you sure he likes guys? I've got my fingers crossed for you.

Today I went and got my boyfriend from his school and brought him to mine. He will be staying the weekend. Right now he is asleep on the top bunk. I am on the bottom bunk, in the dark, with my Thinkpad, typing this.
Tomorrow at noon I will be teaching English to two Japanese students. I will really enjoy that,

>>342
I use the terminal bunches but I'm really not enough of a keyboard person to use it well. Though I do want to check out or make a list of all the minimal Linux browsers. I think another like it is called "dwb".

Did some calisthenics for the first time in a while, and although it was a wimpy routine by most standards, I still felt violently sick for about an hour afterwards. Now I feel great.

>>342
I nearly forgot that it's dead, since I use Iceweasel. I would use Luakit more, but I need to figure out how to block ads through my hosts list or whatever first, so for now I only use it for textboards and other sites without popups.

>>344

Today I went and got my boyfriend from his school and brought him to mine. He will be staying the weekend. Right now he is asleep on the top bunk. I am on the bottom bunk, in the dark, with my Thinkpad, typing this.

That sounds really nice, I'm kind of jealous.
Speaking of Japanese people, I keep having dreams where I talk to them in really broken, slow Japanese (which is probably how it would go in real life, if I ever met a native). It's pathetic, but I'm proud of having studied enough to dream in another language.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_web_browsers_for_Unix_and_Unix-like_operating_systems

"Dillo." What kind of naming sense...

>>345

I need to figure out how to block ads through my hosts list

http://someonewhocares.org/hosts/
this is an excellent premade hosts-file.
Just follow the instructions at the beginning of the file!

>>346
Wow, cool. Now I can visit all sorts of shady sites in comfort and style.

Snowed, probably for the last time this season. There's a patch in my back yard that isn't covered by snow, maybe 20 small birds have been gathered in and around it, in shifts. What are they doing? Mystery bird hole.

>>348
Birds are weird. Once, all of the chickens in my backyard started walking east at the same time. No idea why.

>>349
Don't birds have an internal compass? Maybe they got an urge to migrate. Where would a chicken migrate to?

>>350
I read that it was long believed that pigeons had an internal compass, because they could always find their way home. Turns out they just have amazing memory.

It's getting warmer out. It's odd to feel the warm air while piles of snow around me are not even melting.

>>352
it didn't even snow where I live.
It's super strange, I can't remember a winter without snow.

Heard some fancy bird whistling this morning. They whistle with much more articulation than I can. I found out when I tried to imitate him.

>>353

The winters where I've lived my whole life get smaller and smaller every year. It feels weird when I hear people say climate change is not real when I see it around me.

I'm nearly done with my exams. The last one is on the day after tomorrow and I still need to memorize a hundred pages of marketing bs @__@
The weather is so beautiful right now and I just want to spend my time outside. Once I'm done with the exams, I'll take my camera with me and take a long ride on my bicyle. It's been so long since I have done this.
>>355
I don't understand this either. I mean, it's not like admitting it would be a big deal.

I have a Linguistics exam at noon. I'm scared.

>>357
I got a 72. I'm unhappy.

I have found out that the Pokemon games, in Japanese, are in all hiragana. So I'm going to play Emerald with a dictionary open and learn Japanese as I go！ How's that sound?

>>359
Pretty alright. Just make sure you know where the words start and end, looking out for particles and whatnot. Some sentences might sound weird, but you'll get the hang of separating words in due time. Once you do, you'll have to start picking up the common words and start speeding through sentences. How much Japanese do you know? You might find it easy if you know basic structuring with moderate help from the dictionary. If you're just learning, you should write up a big txt full of words, or maybe even sentences that are quite new or challenging for you. Shove that into your browser and have Rikai-kun at hand. Just don't rush into kanji if you don't have kanji to work on, such as proper text. Many beginners who dive straight into kanji may have trouble with onyomi and kunyomi, so be wary of which one you're typing.

Other easy tools are Kabuto, Obenkyo and Colordict for Android.

I'm tempted to do the same thing, but I might get bored of the linguistic aspect and play something else.

>>359
May be useful for increasing the rate at which you can read kana, and should increase your vocabulary. I find that games with Kanji + Furigana are much more helpful, which is why I read a lot of shounen manga for vocab mining.

Grammar is something I find hard to learn or pick up on without instruction. Tae Kim and Imabi are great resources for that. If you want to look up grammatical points, jgram is good.

I swam in an indoor pool with a bunch of friends today!

I went to a LGBT conf in CT. I went to a drag show and a dance. I had a lot of fun and purchased the softest hoodie in the world.

If I learn to knit or crochet cute things, do you guys think I can sell them for BTC?

Anon from above who whined about tuition woes and the like. Post 313? Yeah.

The bad news is, I basically went despondent in every part of my life other than burying myself in schoolwork. My ability to sleep and appetite disappeared on their own. I started planning for the worst, for my inability to do anything but keep my head down and ignore my own problems.

The good news is, after a good while of this pushing me to the brink, I was desperate enough to force myself to call anybody who would listen and beg them to hold me accountable to getting help. Sign up for an appointment with a therapist on campus or something, and have them to call and make sure I don't back out. Which is what I did. And a few sessions later, life is still shitty, but I'm in sight of a few key letters being written and my being able to get on medication and kind of move on with my life? My problems still feel like a big amorphous wall of bullshit that I can't even start to imagine climbing, and the Important Pills I'm looking forward to aren't really going to be more than the first step of a very difficult journey, but I definitely feel really good about having forced myself to find a professional and spill my guts and get started on fixing things that have haunted me my entire life. All covered by the tuition I'm dying to pay, too, which is nice.

So I'm here now, a few public breakdowns later. On spring break. Raising my GPA bit by bit, working myself hard at my job, putting my feelers out for work this summer to help cover the tuition deficit while I'm off. This post is more than a bit long, and nobody really cares, but this thread is the place I tossed out a few too many words when everything started to really tumble, and I guess it feels nice to do the same now that things have flipped, if you'll pardon my indulgence.

Thanks, cafe.

A few days ago it was balmy and warm and springtimey
It snowed today.
What.

>>324
you were born almost one month before me.

>>364

I'm pretty glad you worked so hard to better yourself! I think I did really well on an exam today. I want to start working out again and going to therapy.

>>364
Don't worry, anon, we're here. My past few days have been rather relaxing. Today I had coffee with a friend and chatted away about miscellaneous things in life. I wondered if I could have the same schedule every day; a train across a watery expanse, the bustling yet quiet mall and a side of coffee served with a friendly and familiar smile. I often wonder if I took the right path in my life, and I keep forgetting about these small things that make us all happy in the slightest way.

Keep going at it, anon. Just remember to smile.

>>338

Me too! Started quite recently as well.

Made me realise just how out of shape I was. It's good to get out of my hikki lifestyle of mostly staying indoors and only venturing out when necessary though.

>>364
That was heartening to read. With that perspective, I'm sure you have as much a chance to make life worthwhile as anyone.

I went for a hell of a bike ride today. I went so fucking fast down a hill I almost shitmyself. It was awesome.

The sun on my skin was really nice today.

Today was I supposed to babysit for a family who lives down the road as I've been doing the rest of the week, but I really wasn't feeling up to it. After I got ready to go, the father drove up and knocked on my door with a bag of free groceries he wanted to give me and told me that he didn't need me to babysit today and thanked me for helping him out the other days, so that was very nice.

>>373
Damn, that's a nice dude.

I've been reading the old Afternoon Café archives one thread a day. Today was the last one. Guess I'm up to date now. Hello, Post Office!

>>375
Hello, Anonymous!

I went for a long bike ride in the freezing cold tonight and it was not as fun or warm as I imagined it would be. About halfway through the ride I couldn't feel my toes so I went into a nearby store and pretended to be looking around to buy something. In reality, I was warming up my extremities before continuing on my journey. Next time I go on a ride like this I will wear two pairs of thick socks.

Here are a couple photos from the bike trail I was on:
http://i.imgur.com/re4yFMf.jpg
http://i.imgur.com/2N9Etah.jpg

Keep in mind that this was at night in a very dark area (hence why you can see the stars in the sky). The photos are only bright because I used a very long exposure time.

I have arrived home from University for spring break. Nothing has changed here in my hometown, and I think I like that. I'm posting from the Midori browser on the Linux computer I built for my mom before I left for Uni. I forgot how large this keyboard was, it's funny to type on. I think I hear rain outside? That would be nice.

>>377
That looks like fun. I'm definetly going to go on some great walks now that I'm back in my forest.

The Spring-graphics on the homepage are so cute!

I had a very relaxing walk/picnic on a cliff.

https://mediacru.sh/3gbi6v502hcp/direct

>>380

And today I found a snipers perch in the woods.

https://mediacru.sh/IOrz7wpHJzZt/direct

I forgot to do my assignment and now my professor will kill me. Goodbye, it was a fun life.

>>382
I'm probably late but good luck, anon.

hello web site it is 5AM and I am uncontroably laughing at this .gif and making noises i think go with it

"hang on imma go fuck with this elephant ABABBAAABABABABABABAB!!!"
http://i.imgur.com/os66vGe.gif

I've been offered a fantastic job opportunity on the other side of the world. I'm 23. I have to leave all my friends, family and my partner. I'm flying in three days. I feel physically sick about doing this. Jumping right into the unknown with eyes closed and fingers crossed hoping it'll enrich my life and be worthy of the sacrifices. Trying very hard to keep all my emotions private.

>>385
That's very exciting. Traveling the world to get a great job opportunity has always been a dream of mine. Good luck!

I met up with many talented video game developers yesterday. We had a few beers, talked and played each others games. It was super fun!

All the windows are open and it's raining so hard. I love that constant sound.

Starting the day with http://tane.us/ac/nl.html and extra large breakfast.
>>388
It hailed yesterday, so I kept the windows closed, but the sound of hail drumming against them was really nice.

>>388
>>389
It rained yesterday here and I slept with the windows open all night. Do we all live near each other?

It just started to pour when I left the diner at dusk. It's getting dark and the first rain of the season was on us. I had a cup of mint tea in my hand as I walked to the library through the dark and rain. By the time I got there the rain had cooled my tea so I could actually drink it. I do love the rain. Fantastic.

>>388
I wish I could be in the attic of the first forestry I lived in, listening to the rain falling on the century old roof.
The world grows so quiet when it's raining.

Today I went to see an apartment. I think the room is too small for a bed and dresser and desk. But it has an exsclusive bathroom door. I'm not sure I'll get it. Maybe.

Oh god. I'm so hungy.

Family was planning on going on a hike today but our car was stolen sometime last night because the keys were left in. Its been a pretty stressful day. Hopefully things will be ok.

>>386

I went for it! Now I live in Hong Kong. It feels weird. I neither feel like I totally fit in, or that I'm a total alien. I hope to adapt in time.

>>396
Congratulations! That sounds exciting.
Culture shock can take a while to get used to. I hope it all works out for the best!
Be sure to take and share some pictures of cool things you see there.

>>396

Wow, Hong Kong sounds like fun.

>>396
That's really neat! I never even left this country, so moving to somewhere totally different sounds like the most exciting thing ever. Best of luck, and dont forget to take and upload lots of pictures, like >>397-san suggested!

>>396
How man, good for you.