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What Worries You?
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101 Name: Anonymous : 2018-09-28 15:47
Old age, and the decay that comes with it. Just dying would be simpler.
102 Name: Anonymous : 2018-09-28 15:48
Old age, and the decay that comes with it. Just dying would be simpler.
103 Name: Anonymous : 2018-10-05 20:26
I have health anxiety, currently I worry I am having a stroke or hearth attack quite often. Also I worry that I will be unemployable once I graduate university and I worry that I will be lonely forever.
104 Name: Anonymous : 2018-10-06 17:26
>>103
that's why you look for internships and jobs before you graduate, and also make a website and build up a portfolio

even if you can't find a 9 to 5, do volunteering, like at a soup kitchen, and you can freelance on sites like fiverr, and make some stuff that you can put on your site
105 Name: Anonymous : 2018-10-06 21:59
>>104
I think the main problem is I don't want a 9 to 5 at all and am trying to persue a career where I am my own boss in a creative industry. However if that falls through I wasn't clever enough as a youth to think out a backup plan so who knows what's going to happen.
106 Name: Anonymous : 2018-10-11 19:06
I'm madly in love with my flatmate. I've never wanted to know a person so much as her - I want to know her thoughts, her feelings, everything that goes on in her head. Just being around her makes me so happy. She's been incredibly kind and caring to me, in a way that no one else ever has...I even let her know how I feel. It's not mutual, but I never really expected it to be. I don't even mind.

She's moving abroad. On the one hand, I know that it's what she wants and I'm happy for her, but on the other hand the thought of never seeing her again absolutely kills me. I've never met anyone like her, and I don't want to lose her
107 Name: Anonymous : 2018-10-23 06:15
Another site I regularly went to since 2008 has closed its doors without warning, perhaps forever. I managed to save some good content off it, though.

Why wont websites last forever? This sucks.
108 Name: Anonymous : 2018-10-24 06:22
I try to keep a positive facade when I'm on the internet, but inside I'm roiling in ever-worsening waves of depression. Somedays I worry that I might succumb to this feeling of despair.
109 Name: Anonymous : 2018-10-24 14:21
>>107
Which site?
110 Name: Anonymous : 2018-10-24 19:10
>>108
Sounds like a time to turn off the modem for awhile.
111 Name: Anonymous : 2018-10-24 19:13
My doggy's getting rather old. I've been regretting the lack of time I've spent with her when she had her youth. She's not the only one I'm worried about- my parents are rapidly deteriorating, and my girlfriend's been diagnosed with rheumatoid arthritis in her 20s.

The days pass by, and time only seems to run faster and faster. It's scary.
112 Name: Anonymous : 2018-10-25 12:23
Every night, I look outside and I only see a handful of stars (if I'm lucky)
It makes a bit anxious. I know there's supposed to be more of them out there and our artificial lighting is polluting my vision to the point where barely any of them are visible.
Why it worries me, I'm not quite sure. Maybe the fact that I can't see something that people have looked up to for thousands of years and despite the stars still being there, I have no possibility to see them. It feels so wrong.

Maybe my life is just too meaningless that I worry about these kind of things, I dunno anymore.
113 Name: Anonymous : 2018-10-28 17:49
I really don't know who I am or what kind of person I want to be, or even what I really like. Things are technically going well for me- I've already accepted a high paying job and have graduated with practically no debt (a miracle in my country), I have a large group of friends I can hang out with, but I still feel unfulfilled. I'm not really sure how to express myself, or how to find (and hold on to) people with similar interests.

I guess I feel like I haven't found my calling? Or that even though I'm surrounded by good things, these things are more "outer" than "inner". But on the other hand, I feel like this could be a "grass is greener" scenario where I don't really see how good things are for me.

I just feel a bit like a fraud, and that my heart isn't really into anything. I'm still young but I don't know if I'll feel satisfied, fulfilled, or even "myself" until I've wasted it.
114 Name: Anonymous : 2018-10-28 22:10
>>113
Self introspection becomes a farce if you continually try to define yourself. There may be consistencies between who you were and who you are now, but challenges often spawn a new part of you that did not previously exist, or reinforces previous conceptions until they're no longer what they were.

The only calling you need is a calling to serve yourself.
115 Name: Anonymous : 2019-03-21 18:23
Losing the will to live.
Harming someone you care about.
The urge to end this world keeps becoming stronger.
116 Name: Anonymous : 2019-03-22 19:43
I want to give everyone in this thread a hug.
117 Name: Anonymous : 2019-03-23 22:22
I have no idea what to do with my life, nor how to begin thinking about it. I worked very hard (and got lucky), eventually accumulating enough capital to never need to work again. But my life is aimless. The friends I once had have all forged their own paths and become distant, starting families, businesses, adventures, and I am stuck in a constant state of analysis paralysis over what I should be doing. A world of endless opportunity but I cannot find my place within it. Money does not buy happiness, or meaningful relationships, or fulfilment.
118 Name: Anonymous : 2019-03-23 23:35
>>117
With money like that, have you tried traveling? It'd probably do wonders if you're stuck in a rut.

You say that you are confused as to what you want to do, but the money you have allows for a lot. Consider starting a non-profit organization or something, or working on some personal project that pertains to your interests. Or try and meet someone and start a family. As long as you start doing something, anything, the happiness and fulfillment will come. Just don't grow stagnant and do nothing.
119 Name: Anonymous : 2019-03-24 08:22
Women.
2 weeks ago I finally started talking to a girl I was in love for half a year. We discovered that we live in nearby apartment blocks (she moved there a month ago) on the way from the work and started chatting about it. She almost immediately gave me her phone number by herself to send me the list of books she was trying to give away and the same evening I went to her place to pick one of them and chat a bit. The next day we went to our workplace together, I also came up with some excuse to meet her again in the evening and this time we talked for almost an hour. We smiled and laughed a lot and it was surprisingly comfortable. Then she left to her hometown on a vacation for 2 weeks and the last week we chatted 2-3 times per day almost daily. She sent me photos and described her days there and she was very warm to me.
The conclusion to all this was yesterday when during on of our conversation she mentioned that she has a boyfriend. I was so dumbfounded that I couldn't even process this information.
The thing is I was 100% sure that she knew that I like her before this (later when I confronted her I mentioned it and she didn't deny it). So to me it's incomprehensible how someone can think that it's a good idea to toy with other person's feelings like that. I spoke with 2 other girls about it, and one of them said something in lines "us girls, huh:)" and the other one also didn't see anything wrong in situation and said that she just wanted to be friends with me.
120 Name: Anonymous : 2019-03-25 02:11
>>119
what part of that was toying with your feelings...?
121 Name: Anonymous : 2019-03-25 04:37
>>120
The part when she mentioned being in relationship on 10th day of frequent communication with a person who's clearly interested in her. It was related to changing her apartment, so she could easily tell me that even on the first day. Or you know, not giving me her number in the first place.
122 Name: Anonymous : 2019-03-25 19:42
Worrying is like praying for what you \emph{don't} want.
123 Name: Paperplane : 2019-03-28 07:20
Becoming a father. My girlfriend stopped taking the contraception pills and I really don't feel fit to be a dad yet. We could afford and manage it in theory, but I still want to travel the wolrd and "live" a little before having to bear the huge responsibility of raising a child.
Don't get me wrong, I really want to have a child or two, just not right now.
124 Name: Anonymous : 2019-03-28 09:53
>>112
It makes a bit anxious. I know there's supposed to be more of them out there and our artificial lighting is polluting my vision to the point where barely any of them are visible.
I know the feel. I remember going to a friend out in the country, and where he lived you could see so many stars! I had a big reaction to seeing so many for the first time, so I don't think it's meaningless to care.
You can like whatever you want, anon. You linking your life being 'meaningless' to you liking this is a fallacy and a very dark way of looking at things.
125 Name: Anonymous : 2019-03-28 15:58
That I won't end up doing anything with my life. I always did really well academically without having to try, so I've always had really high hopes for myself, but now I'm starting to realize there is a lot more to life than school prepares you for, and I don't know how to gain those skills
126 Name: Anonymous : 2019-04-19 05:32
I just learned that invisionfree is gone. I feel a profound sense of emptiness. I grieve for now, but I will try to move on. What I worry for is what will come next. What else will vanish next?
127 Name: Anonymous : 2019-04-21 02:16
My grades.
I'm nearly 30 and coming to terms with the fact that I might just be dumb.
128 Name: Paperplane : 2019-04-21 07:08
>>127
I realised when I attended university. Not in America of course. Where I live University is very rough. I always had very good grades without any effort. Never needed to study. This gave me a false sense of superiority.
University sent me to rock bottom. I was barely passing tests and since I never had a need to self discipline, studying was just a very complicated thing for me to do. I barely graduated but with the degree I have, no one cares about how you got it, just that you got it so I'm fine.
But seeing people easily getting good grades on all these exams made me realize just how ordinary I am. I guess leaving that teenage view of self centredness behind you is part of growing up.
129 Name: Anonymous : 2019-04-26 08:32
>>128
tfw for me it's the polar opposite because no matter how much I try, I'll always get grades around 5,6, or 7/10 since I have a few developmental disorders and a one learning disorder
People are always impressed by my discipline and how much i do my best, but my grades never show it. It's very frustrating and I wish I could - if only for a week - feel what it's like to not have to put my heart and soul into studying to get a decent grade

sorry if that sounded dumb btw
130 Name: Anonymous : 2019-04-26 12:00
>>129
I can feel that. I feel like almost everything I try to do I'm just okay at. It seems like everyone else I know has something they're naturally good at, but I guess I just haven't found my thing yet.
131 Name: Paperplane : 2019-04-27 07:48
Sometimes you're the windshield,
sometimes you're the bug.
132 Name: Anonymous : 2019-05-04 13:52
I wasted my life.
I have nothing now.
Emptiness.
133 Name: Anonymous : 2019-05-07 04:24
The political scenario in my country and my academic future
134 Name: Anonymous : 2019-05-07 10:06
My inability to open up to people, be genuine and my wasted early to mid 20's, Spent all that time ignoring my own existence as a human being.
Im better now but it hurts so much finally realizing how much i screwed myself over and how much energy i sank into a pointless struggle.
135 Name: Anonymous : 2019-05-11 01:31
I have no friends and, at 21, I don't know how to make any and am also afraid to try.
136 Name: Anonymous : 2019-05-12 19:33
>>135
You're no the only one in that boat buddy
Just do your best day by day
137 Name: Anonymous : 2019-05-12 23:29
There's nothing that stimulates me.
I feel like a camera following a separate person.
138 Name: Anonymous : 2019-05-13 08:15
>>137
Sounds like you have some dissociation issue, have you tried talk therapy? Dissociation never fully goes away but therapy did help.
139 Name: Anonymous : 2019-05-14 09:48
I worry about the future. I wonder if I'll be poor and alone for the rest of my life.
140 Name: Anonymous : 2019-05-15 01:28
Currently I'm worried about my personality and who I want myself to be (when it comes to hobbies etc.) I'm all over the map in terms of interests and I'm worried I'll never truly settle down and be interested in/get good at one or two hobbies.
141 Name: Anonymous : 2019-05-15 04:32
>>140

Simple, git gud at all of them, or at least attempt to. The less interesting ones just stagnate and you’re left with the ones you like. This only works if you have a ton of disposable money to spend on hobby supplies
142 Name: Anonymous : 2019-05-15 12:16
>>141
I don't, but this still isn't bad advice.
143 Name: Anonymous : 2019-05-15 14:42
That I might not be super intelligent. I don't know if I am or am not, but it seems like I get lower grades, etc. than most of the people I know.

Maybe it's just my anxiety getting the best of me. No way to know for sure I suppose.
144 Name: Anonymous : 2019-05-17 20:38
Autistic man here, heading to Ireland this fall to finally meet a girl I've been speaking to online for 4 years. I'm worried that I'll fuck it up somehow.
145 Name: Anonymous : 2019-05-18 04:27
I love cigarettes.
:(
146 Name: Anonymous : 2019-05-18 10:42
>>145
You should try cigars.
147 Name: Anonymous : 2019-05-18 13:34
>>146
cigars are only good for blunts do not @ me
148 Name: Anonymous : 2019-05-18 23:34
>>147
@
149 Name: Anonymous : 2019-05-26 16:21
I'm starting to think I'm falling in love with my bestfriend, and that with me having those feelings I'm going to push her away- if I haven't already removedthe rope anchoring that ship.
150 Name: Anonymous : 2019-05-28 00:38
>>149
ah man, that's a shitty situation, i've been there... i had feelings for my best friend for years until i eventually asked her out and she turned me down - things sucked and were awkward for the next month, but things eventually went back to normal. i don't have any advice, but i wish you the best.
151 Name: Anonymous : 2019-08-12 01:08
I'm worried I'll never make anything of value in my life. Stuck in jobs doing menial tasks, never working up enough energy to make something of artistic value in my scarcer and scarcer free time, and probably not good enough to actually actualize a creation like that well enough that it's a real proper work of art, something that someone will care about on more than surface level.
I'm still pretty good at relaxing and getting that off my mind though.
152 Name: Anonymous : 2019-09-04 03:53
i'm worried about the fact that i'm not too worried about anything. ever since i had an accident where i almost lost my hands i've taken most things at face value. to be more specific, i'm not worried about my life or how things will turn out. i'm living each day as its own thing. i don't really have a plan.
153 Name: Anonymous : 2019-09-05 00:38
long-term unemployed and apathetic after being laid off from a job which took a long job hunt to get
154 Name: Anonymous : 2019-09-05 04:16
last month of contract work with very little hope for an extension is giving me real anxiety and I'm beginning to chain smoke like I did in college.
155 Name: Anonymous : 2019-09-05 08:06
Gun control and climate change.
156 Name: Anonymous : 2019-09-05 17:09
Things I've enjoyed in life no longer have the same draw for me. Everything is becoming harder to do. Ulcers in my stomach and nothing in the world is the same again.

Nothing really matters anymore. I used to care for things. 15 km, 144 feet, that worries me. I wonder if I'll stop worrying when everything stops.
157 Name: Anonymous : 2019-09-10 22:06
>>156
I can relate, just realizing that things will never be the same as before and that I took the good times for granted.

I'd give anything to live without this chronic illness that has taken hold of me in the past few years.
158 Name: Anonymous : 2019-09-13 17:36
i want to isolate myself from everyone and hibernate in daydreams and made up realities.
am starting to get nervous in crowded spaces again after a year of being a hyper-social, drug-inhaling club beast with too much self confidence.
i only ever beat one self-destruction cycle to step into another.
159 Name: Anonymous : 2019-09-18 02:49
I worry about my mom and her drinking. And how she lies about her drinking.
160 Name: Anonymous : 2019-09-24 01:01
I worry about never working as hard as I need to to accomplish what I want but just hard enough to be tired and not have time to really just calmly goof off without any worries
161 Name: Anonymous : 2019-09-24 02:56
I'm worried about this infection that's growing on the back of my head and swelling my neck. I went to the hospital over it which I barely even was checked out. They prescribed me some antibiotics and sent me home. Hopefully the medication actually helps...
162 Name: Anonymous : 2019-09-26 00:12
I worry about the fact that I have no real endgoal as far as my life is concerned. I want to reach enlightenment like in Buddhism but I'm a lazy shit that always finds an excuse to put off meditating everyday, and I want to be the CEO of a tech company/play the role of a benevolent elite for my 3rd world country but I'm a lazy shit that barely studies.

Add to that the idea that I feel odd about the fact that I'm not really looking into having relationships. I mean, they seem to be more trouble than they're worth but I worry that by the time I'll want one I'll just be an inexperienced weirdo goof that hasn't really made any real friends since HS, let alone talk to girls.

tl;dr: I'm just worried that I'm not putting in the effort to accomplish the things I want out of life and I'll just be a loser stuck in his parent's house.
163 Name: Anonymous : 2019-10-14 14:41
I moved back to the east coast to be closer to my family because a lot of them are getting older and I could tell that there were going to be a lot of funerals in the next few years. I quit a pretty promising job because I didn't want to be flying back and forth so often for such morbid, miserable reasons.
Now it's happening and I don't really know how to feel. I haven't really felt too much so far and I'm not sure if it's cause something is broken in me.
164 Name: Anonymous : 2019-11-23 03:02
Transit union job action is ramping up. It took 2.5hrs to get home today. Next week there will be full bus closure for 3 days.
165 Name: Anonymous : 2021-03-04 03:36
Work an office job and started feeling a tingling in the tips of my fingers.
I read online that it could be a sign of carpal tunnel.
166 Name: Anonymous : 2021-03-06 21:48
I think I've crossed an age line where I am supposed to leave my nerdy hobbies and interests or at least keep them hidden to avoid ridicule, or be a "creator" whom people look up to. Everywhere I look where I might want to talk about my interests it's full of people who are like 10 years younger and like the new hip thing I usually dislike and are fully immersed in a different internet culture that I dislike.
I doubt I'm such a weird case, but I don't know where or how to find people my age who didn't completely compromise toward the new internet culture. I'm grounded in nostalgia for older stuff or things that are more like that, and I've got no use for modern things.
My hobbies aren't really just hobbies but a huge part of me, so I'm getting a bit stressed about the idea that I might never be able to relate to anyone about them. Loneliness doesn't worry me but this does.
The alternative is just learning to like it this way.
167 Name: Anonymous : 2021-03-07 13:44
Turning 30.
168 Name: Anonymous : 2021-03-07 18:38
>>167
The twilight years...
169 Name: Anonymous : 2021-03-08 22:34
>>168
夕凪の時代?
170 Name: Anonymous : 2021-03-09 20:29
>>166
Hey. Even though we might have different hobbies I understand you too well. Sorry, but it won't be a cheering reply because I gave up on talking and searching long ago. Still, somehow, I am glad to see that someone probably feels the same (despite these not being very pleasant feelings). Take care and endure.
171 Name: Anonymous : 2021-03-09 23:56
>>170
Thanks anon. As they say, wen day is dark, always rember happy day.
172 Name: Anonymous : 2021-03-10 01:33
Project status: Offline
Archiving status: Lost
174 Name: real ethnic English adult : 2021-03-12 06:17
The fact that English and Broken English is still the current global lingua franca! I wish that [any other language] is the current global lingua franca instead! I wish there are fewer/no/zero trans-ethnic English sub-animals and fewer/no/zero counterfeit ethnic English sub-animals!
175 Name: Anonymous : 2021-03-12 10:56
>>161
please take the full course until the doctor tells you to stop taking the antibiotics. if you stop prematurely because you think it's gone already there might actually be a small number of bacteria still there that are more immune to the antibiotics. these bacteria will be even harder to treat.

i wish you good health!!

i just noticed that your post was from 2019, i hope you're better now :)
176 Name: Anonymous : 2021-03-14 21:30
Lack of contact with people worries me. I only have friends online and I think that may come to bite me in the ass later unless I can meet up with them someday. It's one of my greatest hopes to do so, but it takes a lot of money and planning, and it's not a sure matter. So I guess that's also a big worry for me.
177 Name: Anonymous : 2021-04-01 07:01
Yuki.la is dead. (Yes I know 4chan is cringe but I am a coprophile and I kind of like it sometimes.)
178 Name: Anonymous : 2021-04-01 17:26
I have close to no money and can't find a job because of Covid

Damn :(
179 Name: Anonymous : 2021-04-06 06:52
Whenever I go to https://wiki.archiveteam.org/index.php?title=Deathwatch I experience a mild existential crisis.

(actually I don't know what "existential crisis" means and I only wrote it to sound smart)
180 Name: Anonymous : 2021-04-06 12:41
>>179
Strangely I care nothing for all these websites and they don't affect me, but I discovered that YTMND was resurrected so I watched Conan is... AN ALLIGATOR and I was happy, although I could have watched it somewhere else. Thanks anon
181 Name: Anonymous : 2021-04-06 13:37
>>180
This YTMND resurrection doesn't require javascript or flash right, hopefully not html5/css3 either.
182 Name: Anonymous : 2021-04-10 04:13
Feel like there's some mental blocks preventing me from making meaningful progress in my hobbies. Once learning curves start getting steeper, I jump ship. My frustration with this habit-hopping is manifesting itself in a desire to get rid of most of my posessions.

[If I have less things, maybe I can focus on what's left] is my thinking. But I don't know if this is just a cope? Or if I'd actually be okay with minimalism. I want to stop being distracted by shiny new interests. Settle down and do something productive. Argggh
183 Name: Anonymous : 2021-04-14 20:34
just nominated someone's Wikipedia article for deletion and now I feel like a complete asshole...
184 Name: Anonymous : 2021-04-15 13:42
what worries you?
my struggle with being overprotective of others. i'm too empathetic for my own good and whenever someone i care about is sad, i have this weird thing where i forget what bothers me and i focus all my energy on them. that works for a bit, but obviously i can't help or protect everyone, and then i feel powerless and like i'm a bad friend.
185 Name: Anonymous : 2021-04-16 06:38
I'm genuinely worried that I am irrecoverably bound for failure. Higher education has not been working out, but a diploma is a must if I want to pursue my area of interest regardless of how skilled I am in it. There's not much out there for me other than flipping burgers.
186 Name: Anonymous : 2021-04-16 15:30
>>185
Same.
187 Name: Anonymous : 2021-04-19 06:08
I worry about my cousin. I fell in love with her in my mid-teenage years and even tried asking her out. I thought she had liked me too. She rejected me for obvious reasons, and we went our separate ways. I still wonder to this day if she actually liked me, and if we were on a different blue planet where we were not cousins, would I have had a chance? It has been half a decade though. I am sure she has forgotten about me just as much as I have forgotten her.
Hope that was a short and entertaining read for you though.
188 Name: Anonymous : 2021-05-02 23:48
I feel miserably lonely, even though I play video games with friends almost every night.
I feel like I lose myself a little every night, like I lost how I really am, and I will inevitably forget who I was.
I lost almost all my IRL friends, and now I feel like I'm on a different dimension, and I don't know how to solve this.
I want to talk to new people, but with covid I don't go out that much.
I really want to talk to someone but I don't really have much to say. I don't know if I made myself clear because I'm not great with writing in english, sorry about that.

--Mirage
189 Name: Anonymous : 2021-05-02 23:56
>>188
I want to talk to new people
Why?
190 Name: Anonymous : 2021-05-03 00:01
>>189

Because I want to discover new things, share what I love and learn new things, new styles, met different personalities, and not stuck myself in my bubble for months.

--Mirage
191 Name: Anonymous : 2021-05-03 16:42
>>177
I checked it out but I had a brain fart and confused yuki.la with rbt.asia. I saw that rbt works and got happy and started smiling like a retard. Then I realized I am retarded.
192 Name: Anonymous : 2021-05-05 19:10
>>190
>>188
You can use a name by typing it in the name field.
It seems like your issue is that you have not found yourself. You don't seem to have a clear idea of what you are looking for, searching for other people at this stage isn't going to help you.
193 Name: Anonymous : 2021-06-02 09:42
I have no interests, hobbies, and long-term plans. I will likely become a wage slave on a job I hate, 8-12 hours per day, 5 days a week, for the rest of my life. Or maybe I will become a parasite and leech off of my mother, ashamed and disgusted of myself.
194 Name: Anonymous : 2021-06-04 09:16
>>193
Why not do something that makes you proud instead of ashamed?
195 Name: Anonymous : 2021-06-06 07:40
>>193
The problem is that I don't know what I want to do.
196 Name: Anonymous : 2021-06-06 07:41
>>195 smh, I meant to reply to >>194
197 Name: Anonymous : 2021-06-13 19:39
>>3
I can relate to this incredibly well, the feeling of just not being GOOD at anything just having bits and pieces of a variety of things. I've picked out a few things that I've decided to dump my 30's in as my 20's are spent but it feels so late that it makes me depressed.

Something that worries me more than that though is work and where i'll end up living. It feels as though I'll never truly find a place I like without abandoning the rest of my family and that makes it very hard to imagine the future for me.
198 Name: Anonymous : 2021-06-28 15:08
I'm not too sure what to do with myself, i recently dropped out of university because i was a lump who couldnt focus on work during online lectures. My dad still seems hopeful ill find something to do, for now im just going to keep drawing, maybe look for some burner job to save up some money, but ill be damned if i know what i actually want out of life.
199 Name: Catt : 2021-06-29 23:17
The feeling of emptiness is immense. I understand you perfectly.
200 Name: Anonymous : 2021-07-13 16:17
I worry that I will not be able to ever actually break into my field (Software Engineering), even if it is supposed to be considered quite a lucrative one. From what I've kept reading on the internet, internships are during college are supposed to be quite a vital part of the process, but then I worry I won't even be able to find one of those.

One of my friends has constantly been talking to me about her internship at IBM and showed off all the merchandise they sent her before starting it, and now she's even getting to work with a team of people from my native country. I'm pretty envious to say the least. All I cound find this summer is some externship, and a job tutoring a class in Python only once a week, but I don't know if either will actually anything for me to get an actual internship.
201 Name: Anonymous : 2021-07-13 16:27
>>200
Can't type today, jeez. I meant "will actually do anything for me to get an actual internship."
202 Name: Anonymous : 2021-07-14 20:50
>>200

I thought the same when I was trying to get an internship, that was maybe ten years ago. So I can relate to this quite a bit.

Granted your country may be very different from mine, but here, first one/two jobs are the hardest to get in this field and after that you can basically fall into any job without trying. I wouldn't take an IBM type job for twice what I'm on now.

I often think it would be nice to help people who were in a similar situation to me back then, but I actually have no idea how to do that while staying anonymous. All I really did was apply everywhere and work my ass off at university, talked to teachers/professors a lot and tried to see if they could recommend me for anything.

Naturally there's the obvious stuff like it helps to have a github with stuff on there. Doesn't really have to be the best, but it shows you know how to use git. You can also set up sites for stuff using github pages pretty easily, so if you can think of any cause or anything that could use a site, all you really have to pay for is DNS.

I don't know how useful any of that is. I check this site maybe once a week and I interview a lot of junior devs so if I can answer any questions or something then I will. Good luck and try your best.
203 Name: Anonymous : 2021-07-15 13:08
>>202

Thank you for your reply. I'm based in the U.S. I also have Bulgarian citizenship, and apparently there is a boom in tech jobs there at the moment, so I had actually tried looking for internships there as well. One job posting really appealed to me, because the company primarily uses C and I had just completed two Programming courses that were taught in it so I thought it would be an excellent opportunity in particular. They invited me for an interview and gave me a quiz on C towards the end, but most of the questions were on concepts we were never taught in my classes. Needless to say, I bombed it pretty hard and they then e-mailed me that I could not move further in the hiring process because of my results. Not quite sure why they made their final decision based on such a quiz, when they told me during the interview itself that I would go through training courses for C if hired. I figured Bulgaria would not suffer from the Catch-22 of experience like in the U.S. did, but maybe I was mistaken.

If you don't mind me asking, how did you go about building a relationship with professors? I hear about it alot but I'm still quite puzzled on how exactly to do it. I've started going to my professors for help alot more these past two semesters, but it still hasn't left me with any meaningful connection with any of them. (I also have struggled with socializing, although I have made some improvements, so perhaps that is another reason why I am confused on how exactly to go about it. Does it involve starting to talk to them about things outside of academics and when should I do that, in that case?)

How does one post their projects on their resume? I've been worried whether posting links on it looks professional or not, and whether or not I should just write sections summarizing what they are about in that case.

Thanks again!
204 Name: Anonymous : 2021-07-15 15:26
>>203
Hi fren! Its pretty standard to have a link to your github/website on resumes. Employers WANT to see what you've been working on. Best practice is to put it on top with your contact info. Or, if there's a single, long-term project you want to direct attention to, a link in a "Highlighted Projects" section with relevant description is appropriate.
205 Name: Anonymous : 2021-07-16 17:12
>>203

>>204 is 100% correct. When I'm hiring a junior the first thing I look for is what they've done outside of work. All the grades in the world don't really compare to being able to see what someone's actually capable of. Even better if they're projects that they've done themselves outside of college/uni.

I'd say also try not to feel down about interviews where you don't get the job. Everywhere really wants experience, because it's the most reliable thing that shows you can do the job. Everyone has to apply to a lot of jobs at the start and probably you'll only get offers from a few, especially for an internship. Try to avoid being picky on language and the type of work until you have a few offers and can pick one.

In terms of relationships with professors, I generally talked to them about the course material and work given out at first. In theory they all have some kind of passion for both teaching and the subject, which you should really have a passion for the subject too so it's an easy thing to talk about. Don't hesitate to ask about things like "What are some good books or articles on X subject you talked a bit about" or anything like that and try and have a discussion about something technical.

I'm UK based and the market is very different over here to US, but similar to the EU. If you have EU citizenship and are comfortable living somewhere you haven't for a year or so, I'd really recommend applying for places in the EU.

It might be that there are lots of benefits to working in the US but from my perspective and from the people I know who work there or have moved there to work, the level of skill is the same, but the pay is higher, although this mainly focuses on silicon valley. For an internship you mainly want something that you'll learn a lot from.

And in general I'd just apply everywhere and decide after you have an interview or they get in contact with you if you want to take it further. It's also good to read up on some current/common practices outside of uni and be able to talk about those at length and have opinions on them. An example would be something like infrastructure as code, or CI/CD, or TDD. The important thing is to show that you're thinking about these things and are interested in them.

I hope any of this helps and please feel free to ask any more questions.
206 Name: Anonymous : 2021-07-18 17:33
I feel like I picked the wrong major for my college and I don't know if I should just go with it or try to change it. I'm still only 3 semesters in so it's still pretty early but I'm not sure what to do.
207 Name: Anonymous : 2021-07-18 23:16
>>206
That was when I had the realization that I needed to change majors myself. In the end it was very, very worthwhile. I also got lucky enough that I didn't have to take on an extra year either.
It's a big move so make sure it's what you want though. What might soften the blow would be the check into how much what you've already done transfers over. Most times you might have actually covered a significant amount of requirements from whatever your new major is, especially if its somewhat similar (or even significantly different, as BA's usually have to take some science electives and vice versa) I guess my advice is to set up a meeting with your advisor and get in contact with one from the new college as well (if it's a different part). Do some more introspection first of course. Good luck anon, you can do it!
208 Name: Anonymous : 2021-07-20 12:46
i'm starting to feel lost again and notice depressive thought patterns and i don't like it :(
worried i might be slipping into a depression again, worried about the same thing for most of my friends. so much negativity and hopelessness around me.
209 Name: Anonymous : 2021-07-30 08:35
I'm having an affair with a neighbor. We are both married. She's very attractive, and I'm... average. We sometimes go to dinner with spouses all together and it's very stressful. I don't love her, she doesn't love me, we just love the thrill, I guess. I'm afraid it'd be more awkward if we stopped. I also sort of kind of don't want to stop. First rule of getting better is the will to get better, I know. I realize my situation: I don't actually have anyone. My wife doesn't know me, neither do my parents, nor my friends.

So I'm worried that I'm a horrible person and I know that I don't deserve my wife and I'll look like a happy husband but I'm super shallow and don't deserve anything.
210 Name: Anonymous : 2021-08-01 00:03
maybe i don't have any good friendships and it's all my fault. these past two years i've been drifting away from everyone i know. and i just spend my time on the internet but i'm not making friends there.
211 Name: Anonymous : 2021-08-01 01:00
>>210
I feel it too.

Everyone I've known in high school is graduated or about to, while I still have another 2 years ahead of me. People I would have put my life on the line for barely reach out to me anymore. Aside from family, I spend most of my time alone, trying to fill the void with hobbies. Maybe I'm just a boring guy, and I'm better off looking for boring people.

*Blows pipe pretentiously, stares into the distance* c'est la vie I suppose
212 Name: Anonymous : 2021-09-02 14:10
I'm anxious to die alone. In a way, we all die alone so perhaps what I'm really trying to convey is the fear of spending the rest of my life alone.
I have only one irl friend who has a gf and they are planning to move to another continent.
Apart from him, I have a bunch of online friends whom I rarely talk to apart from a girl. She's very sweet and I have been developing feelings for her but unfortunately someone asked her out before I could which left me devastated. This is the second time it happens actually hence why I truly believe that I'm destined to stay alone.
I have trust issues and cannot trust anyone as well as I trust her. One could say that I should attempt to meet more girls and build trust with one of them but they would be wrong for I lack the strength to do that. I fear that this might end like "The Sorrows of Young Werther".
213 Name: Anonymous : 2021-09-03 22:38
>>212
How old are you anon? It sounds like you are quite young and you do not have to worry much

>>1
I think my biggest fear is just wasting this life, not managing to create any sort of worthwhile story, a legend and just die as a part of a part of modern mass. Maybe it is a crazy ambition, but well, for most here I see a fear of loneliness as dominant, but as being quite intelligent person it seems it is just a part of the deal so whatever.
214 Name: Anonymous : 2021-09-07 13:58
>>212
One could say that I should attempt to meet more girls
You should, because when you have little opportunities, you will always feel like it's "all or nothing" with a girl because you don't know if you will meet another one. If you are truly not happy with the situation you should try to look into what can be done to change it.
But how? I don't know, I'm in the same boat as you and as much as I want to meet more girls (or people in general) I don't know how or where. I don't have any friends to begin with and I've found it's very difficult to start from zero.
215 Name: Anonymous : 2021-09-10 05:51
I'd say procrastination, but I'll think about it later. Maybe tomorrow.
216 Name: Anonymous : 2021-09-12 18:50
Homelessness is an easy one. I had a taste if what it would be like after having to live in hostels for a few months. I still have a support network for now. Elderly care for my parents is another one, I don't have the resources if they did need it.
mainly though I'm afraid of landing on a well-paying job only to think "that's it?" So much of my life has centered around working towards some ambiguous goal, can't imagine what it would be like to feel that the attained lifestyle wasn't worth the effort.
217 Name: Anonymous : 2021-09-29 12:08
I'm worried that my extreme addiction to female feet will get me into trouble.
218 Name: Paperplane : 2021-09-29 15:23
>>217
How?
219 Name: Anonymous : 2021-09-30 21:51
>>218
You know how awkward it can be when you get caught ogling a pretty girl? Imagine she catches you staring at her feet.
220 Name: Paperplane : 2021-10-01 06:03
>>219
I do it all the time. Never ever was there a reaction.
221 Name: Anonymous : 2021-10-02 11:11
I'm 28 and I'm worried that I'm going to waste my 30's like I wasted my 20's.
222 Name: Anonymous : 2021-10-02 14:59
I'm worried that nothing with ever get better in my life and I won't be able to live financially comfortable, despite what all the baseless platitudes say otherwise.

I feel so isolated and disconnected from society and other people, that even expressing this on a stupid ass anonymous board feels extremely weird.
223 Name: Paperplane : 2021-10-04 16:16
I keep finding objects in my house in wierd spots where I don't remember putting them there. I know the rational explanation is that I put them there but the fact that I just can't remember it means that maybe it wasn't me or that I'm starting to get Alzheimer's or Dementia.
I rarely lock my backdoor and technically my ex gf still has a key.
224 Name: Anonymous : 2021-10-09 20:08
My future.
I've backed myself into a corner that I don't want to be in and I have no idea how to get out of it with a limited amount of time to figure it out. I keep trying to come up with ideas but none of them are solid and I'm just terrified of what might happen if I mess up.
225 Name: Anonymous : 2021-10-17 20:42
It was my birthday yesterday. I'm 18 now. That means adulthood. I have no clue what to do with my life or what's to come of it. I want meaning, I want purpose. This... This is what worries me.
You see being 18 means I can't use my age as an excuse anymore. "I'm just a kid I shouldn't have my life figured out right now!" Will I always feel like I don't have things figured out?
226 Name: Paperplane : 2021-10-17 21:56
>>225
18 is still pretty much a kid, especially today where more and more people study instead of learning a trade so they stay in their protective bubbles throughout ther 20s.
For me actually moving out and working a job made all the difference. You earn your own money and you have your responsibilities. So you still have some "kid" time ahead of you when you're studying or learning a trade. And no, the feeling of being completely clueless will go away with time because you have more years to look back on where you were less wise so you will feel progress (provided you do something in those years other than NEETing)
227 Name: Anonymous : 2021-10-19 01:39
>>225
I'm nearing a decade older than you and I can tell you that I was nowhere close to having figured out my "purpose' or "life" at your age even if I thought otherwise. Hell, even having accomplished a fair bit in the time since then I can't say I have any sort of grand design to my life.
I made at least three or four huge pivots in my life after thinking I was set at 18, I changed majors, I went to the other side of the country, then I dipped on a promising job to come back and then I left another job to finally settle on the one I'm at currently. It's only now that I feel like I've finally become more settled with who I am, but setting aside having a general process for what to do in the near term, I don't have any real sort of plan for the long term.
I say take life as it comes, make sure to assess if you're happy every so often, and don't stress out too much about making big shakeups if you're actually unhappy.
228 Name: Anonymous : 2021-12-27 22:56
I'm worried that my entire life is going to pass me by, and in the end, I will feel as if I wasted all of it. Every day, I feel hyper-aware of the reality that time is slipping through my hands like sand, but I never do anything about it. I just want to feel satisfied about my attempts to live a full life, despite the difficulties and pain... but I never attempt anything. I don't know how to make myself.
229 Name: Anonymous : 2021-12-28 07:16
Why are so many threads here about existential subjects?
230 Name: Paperplane : 2021-12-28 11:50
>>229
1. NEET / /jp/-ish atmosphere or at least heavily intersecting userbase
2. very stiff emphasis on "taking it easy" which results in either mundane topics to the point of banality or extremely serious long winded WoTs because short posts are considered rude
231 Name: Anonymous : 2021-12-29 08:41
I don't think the emphasis on "taking it easy" is stiff at all. There used to be a lot more non-existential posts, not sure why they've all been like that as of late.
232 Name: Paperplane : 2021-12-29 19:16
>>231
Maybe I worded it wrong but I feel like the "take it easy" gentleman's agreement leads to some discussion being very constrained which - don't get me wrong - benefits this place overall but can feel a little forced here and there which might explain what >>229 is observing.
233 Name: Anonymous : 2021-12-30 06:29
>>231
Its just really been the new threads that are existential. The old, established ones are still focused on happy slice-of-life-y moments. Not a lot of people are posting in those these days. Some of those were ALWAYS on the front page but now they're getting buried. Sad to see that though, so I'll try to bump some of my favorites soon.

I don't know if we've lost some regulars, gained some new friends or what, but the atmosphere has changed a lot since I last checked in. That's the fate of small internet communities, eh? Maybe in a while, things will be swinging in a more upbeat direction again.
234 Name: Paperplane : 2021-12-30 10:48
>>233
I tried to bump an older thread a few weeks ago or so but it appeared to have some sort af autosage enabled even though it had far fewer replies than the "cool places"-thread. But I agree, a good old "what's going on today"-thread would benefit page 1.
235 Name: ADMIN : 2021-12-30 13:30
>>234
I had autosage enabled for threads that hadn't received a reply for more than 2 years, but that might not make sense for a board like this one. So I just disabled the autosaging completely!
236 Name: Anonymous : 2021-12-30 18:41
>>235
Reenable it you're literally killing postoffice!
237 Name: Anonymous : 2021-12-30 21:16
I’m worried that I’ll never find a wife
238 Name: Anonymous : 2021-12-31 19:35
>>237
what are you doing to work towards getting one?
239 Name: Anonymous : 2022-01-01 21:01
A lot.

First thing is my current job situation. I have a degree in a field that I don't like. It cost me a lot of money and time to earn that degree and now I don't want to use it anymore. I have worked 5 years in that area and it ruined my mental health, now I have to search for something else. With that I am basically back where I was in my teens, to the question what I should work, how I can pay my bills. Nowadays I am just tired, jaded and depressed. To work towards a new degree seems impossible, because of that I aim for a job that doesn't require some education before. The payment is mostly irrelevant, as long as I can pay my bills.

I am also lonely. As an introvert I don't need much but having only surface level human interaction since years is devastating. Having no friends and no one to share your life with just leaves a huge hole unfilled. Worse is that as a teen I burned the last remaining bridges I had and that I would have a brother and a mother I get along with great, but both never having any time at all due to their living conditions. Losing my cat is just the cream on the top.

One thing is also me having no idea what I even want from life. Now and then I get the urge to do something, to do less what I am currently doing, but I just don't know what this something should be.
Sometimes I want to create something, although I have no idea what. I am uncreative, bad with my hands, lazy and can be very dense every now and then. Passions? None. Interests? A few, but not strong enough to actually be passionate about them.
All I know is only that I want to somehow get by, that I can manage my life without ruining my health, be it mentally or physically. Else, I just don't know. Those sudden urges confuse me, I have no idea where they are coming from and what they mean. They simply scream do something, with me not knowing what and why.

Last thing is my depression and anxiety that started in 2010 and has been fucking me for years, then vanished and broke out again. If I knew how to handle that, this would be great. Last time I could beat them down with changing my life fundamentally, maybe with acquiring new work this will get better?
Overall I am tired and burned out, often yearning for death, even though I know life can be beautiful and that it already has been, way back in my childhood and early teens.
Nowadays I don't even know where to go anymore, nowhere I feel at home anymore. Multiple times I thought about leaving the Internet, but then what should I do then? Until now it is what kept me sane, I tried without and I really don't want to grace a psychiatric ward again. Once I read that the old Internet is still around, just hidden and slow, you only need to know how to search for it. Well until know I didn't found it, unless small and slow forums, image- and textboards are supposed to be that.

Last thing, can anybody tell me what happened with the ykkaria imageboard? I remember visiting it now and then, but suddenly stopped for some reason. I remembered it today and in my desperate search for a new home I found out that it is gone and got to here, it's spiritual successor. Never was a huge fan of textboards, so quite a pity to have lost it.
240 Name: Anonymous : 2022-01-02 05:46
>>238
starting a new job soon, working up the courage to go ask a girl out, trying to avoid looking at other people’s relationships through social media, staying as positive as I can
241 Name: Paperplane : 2022-01-02 07:55
>>239
How come that you got your degree if you don't like it? When did you realise you don't like it?
242 Name: Paperplane : 2022-01-02 09:02
Soon after the first lockdown in March 2020, I gave in and tried out online dating like Tinder and such for the first time. I just came out of a failed relationship of 3 years in January of that year and I realised that my situation made it almost impossible to meet girls. My job is 90% male dominated and there's rarely any new people around. Other than that I have no hobbies or activities that would increase my chances of meeting them.
I was always disgusted by the idea of these dating apps though, just swiping past people based on their looks, maybe a short description but eventually I broke my principle and installed several of them, since I heard that they feature different kinds of people.
And to my surprise it actually went way better than expected. I've not gotten into a lasting relationship, I wouldn't be posting this if that was the case, but I still made a lot of positive experiences. And it completely erased my nervousness around girls, since I've been on more first dates than I can remember.
Even the very first girl I met was super sweet. We dated a few more times but she was super caught up in her studies to a point where she had no time for a relationship the way I expect one to go so we stopped dating on my behalf. Anyway, I don't want to bore you with all the experiences with these apps but overall positive.

Recently I started dating a new girl. 100% my type. We already met 5 times, watched movies together and in between had calls over 5 hours and we already kissed. But she is really, really introverted and emotionally cold. I noticed that early on and didn't know how to interpret this, so I asked wether she was even interested in me and she said that she has trouble expressing emotions and likes to take things slow but definitely wants to keep seeing me. Alright - I thought to myself - I can play the long game, probably a good idea for once because I tend to rush things.

Turns out I can't.
Every time I meet her, I feel that I'm developing a crush on her and it keeps growing. I want things between us to intensify, want to kiss and touch her more, want to say nice things to her etc.
But nothing is happening from her side. Earlier last month I picked her up for a date and she didn't even hug me. I hugged her and she literally said "Oh I forgot people do that." Whenever we hang out she dropped several times already that she is pretty happy being alone and that she doesn't want to have children. I asked here wether she likes romance and she told me - of course - no. We also talked about sex and she told me that she doesn't really like it.

So I am beginning to question why she even wants to see me. Love, emotion, passion, lust - none of these appear to be her thing at all, yet she already took on the 1 hour car ride to my place several times already so she apparently has some kind of interest? And it's not like I'm a virgin who never met a girl before, I know how different the situation can be after 2-3 months of dating.
And I am confrontational, direct and very open with my feelings so I talk about some of these problems, I talked to her about how I am really romantic and clingy and that I'm starting to feel that we are incompatible as potential partners and asked how she feels about that. And then she got really neverous and said that opposites aren't a bad thing and that it doesn't have to mean anything, signaling to me (at least that's how I interpret it) that she really does want to keep seeing me...
After that conversation we had one more date, between christmas and NYE. She came over here, we just watched some movies and cuddled on my couch. Cooked dinner, and in the evening around 10pm she left. I intiated a kiss for goodbye, I don't think she would've kissed me if I hadn't initiated it.
I asked when we will meet again and she said that she will come back to me on that in the next few days.
And that's where I am right now.
I don't know if it's just me getting emotionally invested way too early again or her being super distant and cold (probably it's both), but it's tearing me apart. I miss her already and think about all this all day for several hours but I don't think she even thinks of me.
I want to talk to her about it. Not just in these small questions as mentioned above where I tried to gauge her interest. But ask straight forward why she even dates me.
I have one more week off. I have all day for these thoughts to trouble me. Now I have a choice to make:
1, Wait for her to message me about our next date, then talk about my issues with the situation onthere. This could take a long time however and every day I'm stressing over this shit.
2. Give in and be the one to ask for the next date, then talk about it there.
3. Call her/message her today and just get it out of the way.

This is worrying me. Like I am worrying about it a lot in the most literal sense. I also feel like I am losing time. I never had issues finding a new girl via these apps and even met one at a Haloween party last year and got her number. So I don't want this to be a waste of time when I could instead try my luck with someone who actually feels things. But I want a serious relationship and maybe it works out with her when I'm just patient and really like her and AARHGGasdasdkb!!!! ヽ( `д´*)ノ

Sorry lads, I know this is basically teenager tier drama and maybe dating isn't the right topic for this place but I just HAD to get it off my chest.
243 Name: Anonymous : 2022-01-02 14:58
>>241
Theory and experience made that. The entire education to that degree was actually quite interesting.
Working was awful though, in practice my mental health slowly started to deteriorate because it was not the right thing for me. I worked in an office and offices are terrible. Too noisy, too many interruptions, too many outside influences, too stressful through crunch times, office culture, sitting the entire day, too less space, too much overtime, the list goes on and on.
At the end my back hurt like hell and I couldn't recharge in the amount of free time that I had. Too stressed all the time, too much pressure. Besides the fact that office culture also lays a claim to that free time left.
244 Name: Anonymous : 2022-01-04 04:31
>>242
I want to give you a hug after reading that. I know that feel bro. Take a deep breath and *act decisively*
245 Name: Paperplane : 2022-01-05 02:08
>>244
Thanks bro.
Talked to a RL good friend about it and he said I should wait until about friday for her to message me about the date we were gonna have (but no day set yet). If she doesn't I will just confront her and sort this shit out because it's really not worth stressing over all the time. If she's not ready for more and I'm being too fast for her I will probably just drop her because it's doing me no good. If she's ready to give some feedback and return at least some of my affection while she slowly opens up I'm fine with keeping up with that.
Let's see how that goes.
246 Name: Anonymous : 2022-01-05 03:53
>>245
Good thinking. Take it carefully, but know when to act.
I Ching:
䷝䷾
247 Name: Paperplane : 2022-01-06 01:35
Haha, she just texted me and said that it's not gonna work out. While a disappointed, I'm really just relieved because I felt that something was up.
Now I can hopefully go back to that girl I met at the Halloween party and try my luck with her hehehehe
248 Name: Anonymous : 2022-01-07 14:41
>>247
Good luck mane
249 Name: Anonymous : 2022-01-13 05:55
>>1

I'm the same OP.

I'm worried that my low self-esteem will, if I somehow end up even living that long in the first place, just eventually make me a lonely old person in a nursing home that's too timid to even ask for life-or-death medical help (Or be ignored or flat out refused even if I do, because people are shown to be much less willing to help and care about those with low self-esteem).

Also I'm worried that my inability to make lasting connections with other people will catch up to me. I see how many people my family has very good relationships with but I literally only have ones with them and two or three other people at the moment, but they aren't nearly as good. Once my family passes, I feel like I would be completely and utterly alone, with not a single person to care about me anymore.
250 Name: Anonymous : 2022-01-25 20:09
My worries over self-esteem seem near and distant at the same time. It has always been a prevailing issue, yet I've currently been blessed with a living situation that affords me not to think of it all that much. If I were a more active part of society, I'm sure the constant reminders of inferiority to others would cut deeper.
My current concern centers on my inability to stay focused. I have all the time and resources to work toward my dreams-- yet every time I get into the groove of completing tasks, I fall into some dumb internet addiction (youtube/video game/doomscrolling/etc). It completely takes the wind out of my sails, and it's a long, drawn out battle until I'm able to get back to work... When I lay on my deathbed, I fear I will look back and realize all that time I lost. I fear I will never break this vicious cycle of distraction.
253 Name: Anonymous : 2022-02-01 12:08
Did I already waste an entire month of 2022? Yes, I did. :-(
254 Name: Anonymous : 2022-02-01 15:12
>>253
It sure goes fast, felt like it was only a blink of an eye and I also didn't do the things I aspired.
But on the plus side, a lot of good things happened that I didn't expect and I made new plans for the year.
255 Name: Anonymous : 2022-02-07 02:49
There so much in this thread I identify with and it's making me worry a little less about my place in the world, which is nice because I worry a lot.

Thank you everyone.
256 Name: Anonymous : 2022-02-24 02:13
I don't know if I'll ever be able to afford a place of my own.
257 Name: Anonymous : 2022-02-26 05:04
I worry about the war in Ukraine. I don't like that this is a sign of global instability, that everything in life seems to get worse and worse. I'd love for everyone to get along, but unfortunately, due to politics,
258 Name: Anonymous : 2022-04-25 09:48
I cannot use the Web like an adequate person because of some misguided paranoid belief that almost all websites spy on me—not in the sense of automated systems tracking me so that they can bombard me with supposedly more relevant ads or something similar, but in the sense of real people looking at what I do—even though I realize that hundreds of thousands, if not millions, of people visit those websites daily, and there is no reason why someone would single me out. What do I do?
259 Name: Anonymous : 2022-04-25 17:00
My dear >>258 fellow!

This 𝐢𝐬 the adequate use of Internet. Being able to see all your actions on a web-site does not mean refusing this opportunity. And being one-of-a-thousand does not prevent from becoming The One (albeit the probability is low). Website administrator uses powerful algorithms mostly for his administrative purposes¹ but nothing stops him to adapt those algorithms for looking for some specific behavior—including yours, as you simply noticed. Like an ophanim he is tirelessly watching for you and your fellows with thousands of artificial eyes.

And like an ophanim he remembers everything you've ever done with his web-site, so your actions may affect you 𝐫𝐞𝐭𝐫𝐨𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐢𝐯𝐞𝐥𝐲. Nobody except God is able to fully predict the result of his actions. Some fleeting remark left by you in some guest book may become the apple of Eris many years later. Words become weapons backfiring unpredictably, and this is especially noticeable in today's age of censorship returning.

𝓢𝒾𝓃𝒸𝓮𝓻𝓮𝓵𝔂 𝔂𝓸𝓾𝓻𝓼
𝓐𝓃𝓸𝓃𝔂𝓂𝓸𝓾𝓼

¹ Someone would correct me for “ads” but I still don't comprehend the objective point of them.
260 Name: Anonymous : 2022-05-02 19:41
>>259
Wow this is pretentious. There are good posts on here, but this isn't one of them.
261 Name: Anonymous : 2022-05-03 21:13
>>260
But is it true at least?
262 Name: Anonymous : 2022-05-03 21:57
>>261
Kinda, but the presentation is too weird and flowery.
263 Name: Anonymous : 2022-05-13 13:50
I feel like I don't belong anywhere and it's honestly been eating me up for a year now
264 Name: Anonymous : 2022-05-15 06:37
Getting a new hobby.
Realizing I'm too stupid for it.
Mogami gawa.
265 Name: Anonymous : 2022-05-16 15:38
Moving away. I'm going on an internship this summer a few hundred miles away, and it'll be the first time I've lived away from home.
266 Name: Anonymous : 2022-05-17 01:16
>>265
I've lived away from home and I can tell you that it ultimately goes down to money.
267 Name: Anonymous : 2022-05-17 14:12
A friend of mine who always seemed on the verge of doing something drastic and has hit particularly hard times has now cut me off. I get the feeling it'll be for the final time. It was a long while coming and he was aiming to blame me for it, so I don't think there's anything I can do, but it doesn't make the fact it finally happened hurt less. I'm worried, but I don't think there was anything I could do to save him.
268 Name: Anonymous : 2022-05-20 23:18
My disability is getting worse and worse, and I can see the strain my partner has to deal with. I'm worried that I'll become too much for her to deal with
269 Name: Anonymous : 2022-05-20 23:18
My disability is getting worse and worse, and I can see the strain my partner has to deal with. I'm worried that I'll become too much for her to deal with
270 Name: Anonymous : 2022-05-27 11:07
Kinda worried I'll start catching feelings for someone again.
I've already accepted that I probably won't get to experience intimacy or romance again, but there's a girl who's been showing clear hints of interest, but then also I've seen signs that it can't ever turn into anything.

I'm a NEET in recovery, so obviously my economical situation and just life in general isn't much to speak of, and I've overheard her speak to a friend of hers about dating stuff. She seems to put value in stuff like nice cars and what kind of job they have and so on.

But then again, I'm not sure she has met someone like me before, I don't even use dating apps (I'm not that desperate). And I know I have lots of good qualities that make me a good partner, I'm just not sure if it's worth it to give it a shot, just to be shot down. She would need to like me enough to look past lots of things that are probable dealbreakers for someone like her, to actually reach those good parts.

It would be so much easier if it had just been me that was interested in her, then I could just drop it. But that small little hope inside just won't let itself be squished like it should. And it would feel rude to stop greeting her when she seems so happy when I do, but that is just the thing that's dangerous also. Sooner or later those eyes and smiles will reawaken my heart, for the sole purpose of more hopeless suffering.
271 Name: Anonymous : 2022-05-27 14:19
She seems to put value in stuff like nice cars and what kind of job they have and so on.
Boi, she is just looking for one night stand.
272 Name: Anonymous : 2022-06-04 09:32
>>271
what kind of job they have
one night stand
273 Name: Anonymous : 2022-06-05 07:03
>>272
Finding a sugar daddy is the default option.
274 Name: Anonymous : 2022-06-09 12:35
It feels like everything I like is dying
275 Name: Anonymous : 2022-06-21 09:41
Caught feelings for a person, out of the blue.
It's mutual, for the first time in like 29 years I've been existing. I'm happy but also a bit worried. How is this going to change my life?
My lack of experience really shows here, even though everything is looking good, I'm simply anxious about the unknown. Worst of all, before I met her I was really on the edge of giving up, thinking maybe relationships just weren't a thing for me. Why did I have to meet her exactly at that moment?
276 Name: Anonymous : 2022-06-21 21:49
>>275
Lean into it anon, see what happens. Embrace that unknown.
277 Name: Anonymous : 2022-06-24 19:48
Update to >>270
I kinda asked her out, figured better to break fast than to keep thinking about it.
Gave her my contact info instead of taking hers, as a measure to make sure she's actually interested enough to reach out. She did say she was down for it. Hasn't sent anything yet though, gut feel says she won't. Been more than a week already.

At least I learnt something about myself in the process, I'm no longer the anxiety bomb that I once was. Didn't even feel a raise in my pulse when I asked her out, cool as a cucumber.
278 Name: Anonymous : 2022-06-24 20:51
>>277
Wish you the best anon, as I see it you already have your first victory under your belt. Keep it up.
It's a clever trick to give your contact information first, I hope it works out for you.
279 Name: Anonymous : 2022-06-25 13:27
Outta college soon, still have no skill to live on.
Am considering becoming youtuber tho, do some live streams and see how it goes.
280 Name: Anonymous : 2022-06-30 10:39
>>276
Yeah that's basically the best approach, stop worrying and enjoy the experience.
Even though we live far apart and I can hardly see her once a week but the fact that we both feel something is just incredible to me. I just need to keep my head cool and not lose myself.
281 Name: Anonymous : 2022-06-30 16:28
>>280
I agree. ^^
282 Name: Anonymous : 2022-06-30 16:44
>>280
I agree. ^^
283 Name: Anonymous : 2022-07-04 02:22
To make a long story short since thinking about this always makes me sad (and i'm an ESL):
I graduated HS back in 2017 on a small town and started going to college by 2018, but it was pretty tough since it was far away and getting there (and coming back home after every class) took many hours and it was pretty unsafe, so by early 2019 my older brother (who's living abroad) convinced me to move to the capital and study over there, since it would be way easier and safer, plus he could send money and stuff.
I moved and started studying in another college from the ground up again, it went fine for the first two semesters until the quarantine started in 2020 and we had online classes, so when the third semester began i lazed off A LOT and failed the first two exams, i was so embarassed by this (since i was accustomed to getting really good grades back in HS) that i stopped replying to the teachers and simply gave up, all while assuring my brother that i was doing fine.
Then, i'm not sure why, but this repeated in the following semesters until this year began, though i should be graduating by now, i'm basically still a 3rd semester student and i'm extremely embarassed and afraid to tell my brother that i'm such a lazy failure, i know what i must do but i can't muster the strength to do it, every day i'm scared that he'll call me or send a message and ask what's actually going on.
I'm not suicidal nor depressed by the way, at least i don't 'think' i'm depressed, i can't say and that's why i just think i'm just lazy and spoiled since i had it really easy for most of my life until now, if i could stop being such a coward and assume my responsibilities like the man i should be i would stop being a leech and finally do something of myself, seeing as i'm 22 already and i'm basically the same guy i was when i was 19.
TL;DR: I'm a MASSIVE failure at uni 'cause i'm lazy and i'm afraid of telling my brother and angering and disappointing him and my parents.
284 Name: Anonymous : 2022-07-04 19:39
>>283
I had similar experiences, it's really difficult to "open up" to your family when there's such pressure on your shoulders. I don't know you or your brother but my gut tells me it's better if you talked with him about this, invite him over or something, meet him in person and explain that you're not doing well.
If you wait until they figure it out themselves it'll be harder on you. At least in my experience that was the case. Your brother seems like the kind of person that wants to help you out, but if you wait till things get too far out of hand it might frustrate the people around you. So please, don't let challenges like these simmer for too long.
I was stuck in life for quite a few years too, felt like I was still a teenager at 25, it was pretty depressing but now I'm 29 and doing pretty good.
Don't be afraid to talk to those close to you about your struggle, help can come from unexpected places.
285 Name: Anonymous : 2022-07-05 17:42
my inexistent future
286 Name: Anonymous : 2022-07-05 17:45
>>272
Nta, but I think that she would only use anon for a one night stand/she doesn't see him as dating material.
287 Name: Anonymous : 2022-07-13 19:43
>>286
Tbh I think she might just be one of those whose default mode is flirty with a curvy personality. Or she was actually interested (whether in a serious or casual way), but wanted to keep a step back when she found out we might end up in the same group later on. Avoid potential awkardness if it didn't work out.

Either way it's for the best, there's another girl I'm actually more interested in in the same environment. Just never had any chances to make social contact, apart from the one time we introduced ourselves, and since then she never seemd to notice I exist so I figured I had no chances there. Though just before summer break she made eye contact out of nowhere when we passed eachother by and I was too surprised to even say hello.
288 Name: Anonymous : 2022-07-17 07:25
That I won't find love after an abrupt break-up with my first love.
It's kinda silly, of course everything will be alright, the feelings just overtake the rational mind sometimes.

I believe that something better will come along, a love more intense and an experience that will blow the previous one out of the water.
289 Name: Anonymous : 2022-07-17 07:26
That I won't find love after an abrupt break-up with my first love.
It's kinda silly, of course everything will be alright, the feelings just overtake the rational mind sometimes.

I believe that something better will come along, a love more intense and an experience that will blow the previous one out of the water.
290 Name: Anonymous : 2022-07-23 10:41
loneliness with nobody and my low pay job in my 30's
291 Name: Anonymous : 2022-07-27 11:15
Having to actually live in a 1984 style techno-totalitarianism.
292 Name: Anonymous : 2022-08-02 16:52
Executive dysfunction.
293 Name: Anonymous : 2022-08-03 23:24
>>290
Same. I'm 28, it's getting close. I'm happy by myself but I think I'd be happier with someone.
294 Name: Anonymous : 2022-08-03 23:24
>>290
Same. I'm 28, it's getting close. I'm happy by myself but I think I'd be happier with someone.
295 Name: Anonymous : 2022-08-03 23:24
>>290
Same. I'm 28, it's getting close. I'm happy by myself but I think I'd be happier with someone.
296 Name: Anonymous : 2022-08-03 23:24
>>290
Same. I'm 28, it's getting close. I'm happy by myself but I think I'd be happier with someone.
297 Name: wanderlust : 2022-08-04 10:19
i'm afraid that my drinking problem has or alienated my family. i guess i'm ok alone but one day when i'm old maybe my family will not care about my ailing health. i'm not there yet so who knows.... just i will not be saving for retirement and i will not be saving for future healthcare. i'm curious what life has in store for me considering all of that
298 Name: wanderlust : 2022-08-04 10:19
i'm afraid that my drinking problem has or alienated my family. i guess i'm ok alone but one day when i'm old maybe my family will not care about my ailing health. i'm not there yet so who knows.... just i will not be saving for retirement and i will not be saving for future healthcare. i'm curious what life has in store for me considering all of that
299 Name: wanderlust : 2022-08-04 10:20
i'm afraid that my drinking problem has or alienated my family. i guess i'm ok alone but one day when i'm old maybe my family will not care about my ailing health. i'm not there yet so who knows.... just i will not be saving for retirement and i will not be saving for future healthcare. i'm curious what life has in store for me considering all of that
300 Name: Anonymous : 2022-08-10 04:08
>>299
Can you go into more detail about your alcoholism?
Are you NEET? How much do you drink in what frequency etc
You dont have to answer if this is overwhelming or annoying to you. Just out of interest :) I hope you have a good day
301 Name: Anonymous : 2022-08-12 19:24
worried i won't have enough money to pay my rent. or that i'm actually stupid and no one really likes me. reading other peoples' worries kinda helps though. this, too, shall pass...
302 Name: Anonymous : 2022-08-17 19:48
I have no place anywhere and I'm afraid I'll never be able to fit in, and that I'll always be alone.
303 Name: Anonymous : 2022-08-23 16:23
The new semester is gonna start next week and this will be the first time I will have full offline classes. I had 2 classes that I had to go to my campus last semester but the rest was still online.

I'm honestly worried if I could learn properly because I'm used to record all of my class lectures and just replay them whenever I'm having a hard time, and looks like I probably won't be able to do that again starting next week.
304 Name: Anonymous : 2022-09-01 15:21
>>303-san,

Take notes on paper, you'll remember more.

t. took notes on paper
305 Name: Anonymous : 2022-09-03 16:42
It's distressing to think of how much digital crap I've accumulated over the years. Just in a single day I have bookmarked about a thousand links. And it's hard to delete those links because I can't decide what's worth and what's not worth keeping.
306 Name: Anonymous : 2022-09-06 06:24
I have 15 years of family photos and I have no fucking clue how to organize them.
307 Name: Anonymous : 2022-09-10 04:58
I'm worried that I will end up wasting all the time I have in this world, that I will end up having to work some shitty job I hate my whole life, until I don't have any of my youthful energy left and every part of my body hurts, and my mind doesn't work as well as it used to. Every day I stay up late, because I have a bunch of stuff I want to do but not enough time to do it. I fear that my life will end up the same way. That I will end up wasting every opportunity for something interesting or cool to happen in my life out of fear or lazyness. I'm worried that I'll live a life of disappointment for myself and others.
308 Name: Anonymous : 2022-09-11 20:47
>>306
You might like to check out Hydrus. It's basically a personal booru system you run on your computer. Tagging is the best way to organize things like photos and videos. https://hydrusnetwork.github.io/hydrus/index.html
309 Name: Anonymous : 2022-09-13 21:46
>>304
Started to take notes, but I also tried voice recording, and it's actually helping a lot
310 Name: Anonymous : 2022-09-16 14:33
I've had breathing issues for the past several months. Finally getting it checked out by specialist Monday. It comes and goes so I don't think it'll be anything too bad hopefully, but it still sucks.
311 Name: Anonymous : 2022-09-16 15:33
I'm completely broke, in debt, and jobless. At this rate I'll run out of medication soon too. I'm a disabled veteran but have been ignored by the VA. I can't get any work either. I've tried for online jobs but haven't got anything that I can do unfortunately. It's been making me really anxious.
312 Name: Anonymous : 2022-10-14 01:14
The future. No purpose. Stagnation.
313 Name: Anonymous : 2022-10-16 06:05
My family members dying, not having a future, and aging.
314 Name: Anonymous : 2022-10-16 23:51
Not reaching my potential. I feel I could do so much more, but I don't know which direction to put energy towards. It's exhausting, to the point of collapsing like a black hole.
315 Name: Anonymous : 2022-10-16 23:51
Not reaching my potential. I feel I could do so much more, but I don't know which direction to put energy towards. It's exhausting, to the point of collapsing like a black hole.
316 Name: Anonymous : 2022-10-16 23:51
Not reaching my potential. I feel I could do so much more, but I don't know which direction to put energy towards. It's exhausting, to the point of collapsing like a black hole.
316 Name: Anonymous : 2022-10-16 23:51
Not reaching my potential. I feel I could do so much more, but I don't know which direction to put energy towards. It's exhausting, to the point of collapsing like a black hole.
317 Name: Anonymous : 2022-10-16 23:51
Not reaching my potential. I feel I could do so much more, but I don't know which direction to put energy towards. It's exhausting, to the point of collapsing like a black hole.
318 Name: Anonymous : 2022-10-17 04:14
Being homeless. Not being able to care for my Dad in his old age. Living the rest of my life alone with no friends, with only myself to blame.
319 Name: Anonymous : 2022-10-17 04:15
Being homeless. Not being able to care for my Dad in his old age. Living the rest of my life alone with no friends, with only myself to blame.
320 Name: Anonymous : 2022-10-17 05:33
I don't really like to share my worries. But last year, I found out someone who's like a sibling to me was raped by someone who I called my best and that he's been preying on them since they were 15. The sibling told me, and then told me to act like I don't know since they was threatened by them and doesnt word to spread until they are safe. So I am stuck having to still save face as this person's best friend when I hate their guts to avoid suspision. I'm worried that when word breaks out how will I be perceived. Like I'm aware he's a shit of a person but I have to keep this act to keep someone I love safe and the whole silence is complacent has been something weighing on me. I'm also worried that my sibling isn't the only person that was preyed on. It's a lot but I guess the only thing I can do is to just remain ignorant and wait and it sucks. It really really does.
321 Name: Anonymous : 2022-10-17 05:33
I don't really like to share my worries. But last year, I found out someone who's like a sibling to me was raped by someone who I called my best and that he's been preying on them since they were 15. The sibling told me, and then told me to act like I don't know since they was threatened by them and doesnt word to spread until they are safe. So I am stuck having to still save face as this person's best friend when I hate their guts to avoid suspision. I'm worried that when word breaks out how will I be perceived. Like I'm aware he's a shit of a person but I have to keep this act to keep someone I love safe and the whole silence is complacent has been something weighing on me. I'm also worried that my sibling isn't the only person that was preyed on. It's a lot but I guess the only thing I can do is to just remain ignorant and wait and it sucks. It really really does.
322 Name: Anonymous : 2022-10-20 22:41
guilt, shame, the usual stuff y'know

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