Could you explore this feeling of sadness a bit more? Being a man is difficult yet liberating. I don't see what there is to envy in being a woman. I find the life of a woman very delicate and sad. Helpless, almost. Stuck. Also, I think men are more beautiful.>>23
The healthy balance probably comes from a schedule. I have yet to make one myself. But if you want control, a schedule is the place to begin. After a certain point, you have to give yourself a break. Just give yourself a proper one. That is what I've found. Do you have a plan?