I'm afraid of my mom dying or me dying and scarring my mom. Also afraid of never being employed and losing my friends and going full hikki. >>4
From my experience with counseling the only advice I can give you is if you don't like the counselor find a new one and don't just give it up entirely. I've had both ends of a really understanding guy who helped a lot and someone else who was really opinionated and didn't help at all.