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What Worries You?
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178 Name: Anonymous : 2021-04-01 17:26
I have close to no money and can't find a job because of Covid

Damn :(
179 Name: Anonymous : 2021-04-06 06:52
Whenever I go to https://wiki.archiveteam.org/index.php?title=Deathwatch I experience a mild existential crisis.

(actually I don't know what "existential crisis" means and I only wrote it to sound smart)
180 Name: Anonymous : 2021-04-06 12:41
>>179
Strangely I care nothing for all these websites and they don't affect me, but I discovered that YTMND was resurrected so I watched Conan is... AN ALLIGATOR and I was happy, although I could have watched it somewhere else. Thanks anon
181 Name: Anonymous : 2021-04-06 13:37
>>180
This YTMND resurrection doesn't require javascript or flash right, hopefully not html5/css3 either.
182 Name: Anonymous : 2021-04-10 04:13
Feel like there's some mental blocks preventing me from making meaningful progress in my hobbies. Once learning curves start getting steeper, I jump ship. My frustration with this habit-hopping is manifesting itself in a desire to get rid of most of my posessions.

[If I have less things, maybe I can focus on what's left] is my thinking. But I don't know if this is just a cope? Or if I'd actually be okay with minimalism. I want to stop being distracted by shiny new interests. Settle down and do something productive. Argggh
183 Name: Anonymous : 2021-04-14 20:34
just nominated someone's Wikipedia article for deletion and now I feel like a complete asshole...
184 Name: Anonymous : 2021-04-15 13:42
what worries you?
my struggle with being overprotective of others. i'm too empathetic for my own good and whenever someone i care about is sad, i have this weird thing where i forget what bothers me and i focus all my energy on them. that works for a bit, but obviously i can't help or protect everyone, and then i feel powerless and like i'm a bad friend.
185 Name: Anonymous : 2021-04-16 06:38
I'm genuinely worried that I am irrecoverably bound for failure. Higher education has not been working out, but a diploma is a must if I want to pursue my area of interest regardless of how skilled I am in it. There's not much out there for me other than flipping burgers.
186 Name: Anonymous : 2021-04-16 15:30
>>185
Same.
187 Name: Anonymous : 2021-04-19 06:08
I worry about my cousin. I fell in love with her in my mid-teenage years and even tried asking her out. I thought she had liked me too. She rejected me for obvious reasons, and we went our separate ways. I still wonder to this day if she actually liked me, and if we were on a different blue planet where we were not cousins, would I have had a chance? It has been half a decade though. I am sure she has forgotten about me just as much as I have forgotten her.
Hope that was a short and entertaining read for you though.
188 Name: Anonymous : 2021-05-02 23:48
I feel miserably lonely, even though I play video games with friends almost every night.
I feel like I lose myself a little every night, like I lost how I really am, and I will inevitably forget who I was.
I lost almost all my IRL friends, and now I feel like I'm on a different dimension, and I don't know how to solve this.
I want to talk to new people, but with covid I don't go out that much.
I really want to talk to someone but I don't really have much to say. I don't know if I made myself clear because I'm not great with writing in english, sorry about that.

--Mirage
189 Name: Anonymous : 2021-05-02 23:56
>>188
I want to talk to new people
Why?
190 Name: Anonymous : 2021-05-03 00:01
>>189

Because I want to discover new things, share what I love and learn new things, new styles, met different personalities, and not stuck myself in my bubble for months.

--Mirage
191 Name: Anonymous : 2021-05-03 16:42
>>177
I checked it out but I had a brain fart and confused yuki.la with rbt.asia. I saw that rbt works and got happy and started smiling like a retard. Then I realized I am retarded.
192 Name: Anonymous : 2021-05-05 19:10
>>190
>>188
You can use a name by typing it in the name field.
It seems like your issue is that you have not found yourself. You don't seem to have a clear idea of what you are looking for, searching for other people at this stage isn't going to help you.
193 Name: Anonymous : 2021-06-02 09:42
I have no interests, hobbies, and long-term plans. I will likely become a wage slave on a job I hate, 8-12 hours per day, 5 days a week, for the rest of my life. Or maybe I will become a parasite and leech off of my mother, ashamed and disgusted of myself.
194 Name: Anonymous : 2021-06-04 09:16
>>193
Why not do something that makes you proud instead of ashamed?
195 Name: Anonymous : 2021-06-06 07:40
>>193
The problem is that I don't know what I want to do.
196 Name: Anonymous : 2021-06-06 07:41
>>195 smh, I meant to reply to >>194
197 Name: Anonymous : 2021-06-13 19:39
>>3
I can relate to this incredibly well, the feeling of just not being GOOD at anything just having bits and pieces of a variety of things. I've picked out a few things that I've decided to dump my 30's in as my 20's are spent but it feels so late that it makes me depressed.

Something that worries me more than that though is work and where i'll end up living. It feels as though I'll never truly find a place I like without abandoning the rest of my family and that makes it very hard to imagine the future for me.
198 Name: Anonymous : 2021-06-28 15:08
I'm not too sure what to do with myself, i recently dropped out of university because i was a lump who couldnt focus on work during online lectures. My dad still seems hopeful ill find something to do, for now im just going to keep drawing, maybe look for some burner job to save up some money, but ill be damned if i know what i actually want out of life.
199 Name: Catt : 2021-06-29 23:17
The feeling of emptiness is immense. I understand you perfectly.
200 Name: Anonymous : 2021-07-13 16:17
I worry that I will not be able to ever actually break into my field (Software Engineering), even if it is supposed to be considered quite a lucrative one. From what I've kept reading on the internet, internships are during college are supposed to be quite a vital part of the process, but then I worry I won't even be able to find one of those.

One of my friends has constantly been talking to me about her internship at IBM and showed off all the merchandise they sent her before starting it, and now she's even getting to work with a team of people from my native country. I'm pretty envious to say the least. All I cound find this summer is some externship, and a job tutoring a class in Python only once a week, but I don't know if either will actually anything for me to get an actual internship.
201 Name: Anonymous : 2021-07-13 16:27
>>200
Can't type today, jeez. I meant "will actually do anything for me to get an actual internship."
202 Name: Anonymous : 2021-07-14 20:50
>>200

I thought the same when I was trying to get an internship, that was maybe ten years ago. So I can relate to this quite a bit.

Granted your country may be very different from mine, but here, first one/two jobs are the hardest to get in this field and after that you can basically fall into any job without trying. I wouldn't take an IBM type job for twice what I'm on now.

I often think it would be nice to help people who were in a similar situation to me back then, but I actually have no idea how to do that while staying anonymous. All I really did was apply everywhere and work my ass off at university, talked to teachers/professors a lot and tried to see if they could recommend me for anything.

Naturally there's the obvious stuff like it helps to have a github with stuff on there. Doesn't really have to be the best, but it shows you know how to use git. You can also set up sites for stuff using github pages pretty easily, so if you can think of any cause or anything that could use a site, all you really have to pay for is DNS.

I don't know how useful any of that is. I check this site maybe once a week and I interview a lot of junior devs so if I can answer any questions or something then I will. Good luck and try your best.
203 Name: Anonymous : 2021-07-15 13:08
>>202

Thank you for your reply. I'm based in the U.S. I also have Bulgarian citizenship, and apparently there is a boom in tech jobs there at the moment, so I had actually tried looking for internships there as well. One job posting really appealed to me, because the company primarily uses C and I had just completed two Programming courses that were taught in it so I thought it would be an excellent opportunity in particular. They invited me for an interview and gave me a quiz on C towards the end, but most of the questions were on concepts we were never taught in my classes. Needless to say, I bombed it pretty hard and they then e-mailed me that I could not move further in the hiring process because of my results. Not quite sure why they made their final decision based on such a quiz, when they told me during the interview itself that I would go through training courses for C if hired. I figured Bulgaria would not suffer from the Catch-22 of experience like in the U.S. did, but maybe I was mistaken.

If you don't mind me asking, how did you go about building a relationship with professors? I hear about it alot but I'm still quite puzzled on how exactly to do it. I've started going to my professors for help alot more these past two semesters, but it still hasn't left me with any meaningful connection with any of them. (I also have struggled with socializing, although I have made some improvements, so perhaps that is another reason why I am confused on how exactly to go about it. Does it involve starting to talk to them about things outside of academics and when should I do that, in that case?)

How does one post their projects on their resume? I've been worried whether posting links on it looks professional or not, and whether or not I should just write sections summarizing what they are about in that case.

Thanks again!
204 Name: Anonymous : 2021-07-15 15:26
>>203
Hi fren! Its pretty standard to have a link to your github/website on resumes. Employers WANT to see what you've been working on. Best practice is to put it on top with your contact info. Or, if there's a single, long-term project you want to direct attention to, a link in a "Highlighted Projects" section with relevant description is appropriate.
205 Name: Anonymous : 2021-07-16 17:12
>>203

>>204 is 100% correct. When I'm hiring a junior the first thing I look for is what they've done outside of work. All the grades in the world don't really compare to being able to see what someone's actually capable of. Even better if they're projects that they've done themselves outside of college/uni.

I'd say also try not to feel down about interviews where you don't get the job. Everywhere really wants experience, because it's the most reliable thing that shows you can do the job. Everyone has to apply to a lot of jobs at the start and probably you'll only get offers from a few, especially for an internship. Try to avoid being picky on language and the type of work until you have a few offers and can pick one.

In terms of relationships with professors, I generally talked to them about the course material and work given out at first. In theory they all have some kind of passion for both teaching and the subject, which you should really have a passion for the subject too so it's an easy thing to talk about. Don't hesitate to ask about things like "What are some good books or articles on X subject you talked a bit about" or anything like that and try and have a discussion about something technical.

I'm UK based and the market is very different over here to US, but similar to the EU. If you have EU citizenship and are comfortable living somewhere you haven't for a year or so, I'd really recommend applying for places in the EU.

It might be that there are lots of benefits to working in the US but from my perspective and from the people I know who work there or have moved there to work, the level of skill is the same, but the pay is higher, although this mainly focuses on silicon valley. For an internship you mainly want something that you'll learn a lot from.

And in general I'd just apply everywhere and decide after you have an interview or they get in contact with you if you want to take it further. It's also good to read up on some current/common practices outside of uni and be able to talk about those at length and have opinions on them. An example would be something like infrastructure as code, or CI/CD, or TDD. The important thing is to show that you're thinking about these things and are interested in them.

I hope any of this helps and please feel free to ask any more questions.
206 Name: Anonymous : 2021-07-18 17:33
I feel like I picked the wrong major for my college and I don't know if I should just go with it or try to change it. I'm still only 3 semesters in so it's still pretty early but I'm not sure what to do.
207 Name: Anonymous : 2021-07-18 23:16
>>206
That was when I had the realization that I needed to change majors myself. In the end it was very, very worthwhile. I also got lucky enough that I didn't have to take on an extra year either.
It's a big move so make sure it's what you want though. What might soften the blow would be the check into how much what you've already done transfers over. Most times you might have actually covered a significant amount of requirements from whatever your new major is, especially if its somewhat similar (or even significantly different, as BA's usually have to take some science electives and vice versa) I guess my advice is to set up a meeting with your advisor and get in contact with one from the new college as well (if it's a different part). Do some more introspection first of course. Good luck anon, you can do it!
208 Name: Anonymous : 2021-07-20 12:46
i'm starting to feel lost again and notice depressive thought patterns and i don't like it :(
worried i might be slipping into a depression again, worried about the same thing for most of my friends. so much negativity and hopelessness around me.
209 Name: Anonymous : 2021-07-30 08:35
I'm having an affair with a neighbor. We are both married. She's very attractive, and I'm... average. We sometimes go to dinner with spouses all together and it's very stressful. I don't love her, she doesn't love me, we just love the thrill, I guess. I'm afraid it'd be more awkward if we stopped. I also sort of kind of don't want to stop. First rule of getting better is the will to get better, I know. I realize my situation: I don't actually have anyone. My wife doesn't know me, neither do my parents, nor my friends.

So I'm worried that I'm a horrible person and I know that I don't deserve my wife and I'll look like a happy husband but I'm super shallow and don't deserve anything.
210 Name: Anonymous : 2021-08-01 00:03
maybe i don't have any good friendships and it's all my fault. these past two years i've been drifting away from everyone i know. and i just spend my time on the internet but i'm not making friends there.
211 Name: Anonymous : 2021-08-01 01:00
>>210
I feel it too.

Everyone I've known in high school is graduated or about to, while I still have another 2 years ahead of me. People I would have put my life on the line for barely reach out to me anymore. Aside from family, I spend most of my time alone, trying to fill the void with hobbies. Maybe I'm just a boring guy, and I'm better off looking for boring people.

*Blows pipe pretentiously, stares into the distance* c'est la vie I suppose
212 Name: Anonymous : 2021-09-02 14:10
I'm anxious to die alone. In a way, we all die alone so perhaps what I'm really trying to convey is the fear of spending the rest of my life alone.
I have only one irl friend who has a gf and they are planning to move to another continent.
Apart from him, I have a bunch of online friends whom I rarely talk to apart from a girl. She's very sweet and I have been developing feelings for her but unfortunately someone asked her out before I could which left me devastated. This is the second time it happens actually hence why I truly believe that I'm destined to stay alone.
I have trust issues and cannot trust anyone as well as I trust her. One could say that I should attempt to meet more girls and build trust with one of them but they would be wrong for I lack the strength to do that. I fear that this might end like "The Sorrows of Young Werther".
213 Name: Anonymous : 2021-09-03 22:38
>>212
How old are you anon? It sounds like you are quite young and you do not have to worry much

>>1
I think my biggest fear is just wasting this life, not managing to create any sort of worthwhile story, a legend and just die as a part of a part of modern mass. Maybe it is a crazy ambition, but well, for most here I see a fear of loneliness as dominant, but as being quite intelligent person it seems it is just a part of the deal so whatever.
214 Name: Anonymous : 2021-09-07 13:58
>>212
One could say that I should attempt to meet more girls
You should, because when you have little opportunities, you will always feel like it's "all or nothing" with a girl because you don't know if you will meet another one. If you are truly not happy with the situation you should try to look into what can be done to change it.
But how? I don't know, I'm in the same boat as you and as much as I want to meet more girls (or people in general) I don't know how or where. I don't have any friends to begin with and I've found it's very difficult to start from zero.
215 Name: Anonymous : 2021-09-10 05:51
I'd say procrastination, but I'll think about it later. Maybe tomorrow.
216 Name: Anonymous : 2021-09-12 18:50
Homelessness is an easy one. I had a taste if what it would be like after having to live in hostels for a few months. I still have a support network for now. Elderly care for my parents is another one, I don't have the resources if they did need it.
mainly though I'm afraid of landing on a well-paying job only to think "that's it?" So much of my life has centered around working towards some ambiguous goal, can't imagine what it would be like to feel that the attained lifestyle wasn't worth the effort.
217 Name: Anonymous : 2021-09-29 12:08
I'm worried that my extreme addiction to female feet will get me into trouble.
218 Name: Paperplane : 2021-09-29 15:23
>>217
How?
219 Name: Anonymous : 2021-09-30 21:51
>>218
You know how awkward it can be when you get caught ogling a pretty girl? Imagine she catches you staring at her feet.
220 Name: Paperplane : 2021-10-01 06:03
>>219
I do it all the time. Never ever was there a reaction.
221 Name: Anonymous : 2021-10-02 11:11
I'm 28 and I'm worried that I'm going to waste my 30's like I wasted my 20's.
222 Name: Anonymous : 2021-10-02 14:59
I'm worried that nothing with ever get better in my life and I won't be able to live financially comfortable, despite what all the baseless platitudes say otherwise.

I feel so isolated and disconnected from society and other people, that even expressing this on a stupid ass anonymous board feels extremely weird.
223 Name: Paperplane : 2021-10-04 16:16
I keep finding objects in my house in wierd spots where I don't remember putting them there. I know the rational explanation is that I put them there but the fact that I just can't remember it means that maybe it wasn't me or that I'm starting to get Alzheimer's or Dementia.
I rarely lock my backdoor and technically my ex gf still has a key.
224 Name: Anonymous : 2021-10-09 20:08
My future.
I've backed myself into a corner that I don't want to be in and I have no idea how to get out of it with a limited amount of time to figure it out. I keep trying to come up with ideas but none of them are solid and I'm just terrified of what might happen if I mess up.
225 Name: Anonymous : 2021-10-17 20:42
It was my birthday yesterday. I'm 18 now. That means adulthood. I have no clue what to do with my life or what's to come of it. I want meaning, I want purpose. This... This is what worries me.
You see being 18 means I can't use my age as an excuse anymore. "I'm just a kid I shouldn't have my life figured out right now!" Will I always feel like I don't have things figured out?
226 Name: Paperplane : 2021-10-17 21:56
>>225
18 is still pretty much a kid, especially today where more and more people study instead of learning a trade so they stay in their protective bubbles throughout ther 20s.
For me actually moving out and working a job made all the difference. You earn your own money and you have your responsibilities. So you still have some "kid" time ahead of you when you're studying or learning a trade. And no, the feeling of being completely clueless will go away with time because you have more years to look back on where you were less wise so you will feel progress (provided you do something in those years other than NEETing)
227 Name: Anonymous : 2021-10-19 01:39
>>225
I'm nearing a decade older than you and I can tell you that I was nowhere close to having figured out my "purpose' or "life" at your age even if I thought otherwise. Hell, even having accomplished a fair bit in the time since then I can't say I have any sort of grand design to my life.
I made at least three or four huge pivots in my life after thinking I was set at 18, I changed majors, I went to the other side of the country, then I dipped on a promising job to come back and then I left another job to finally settle on the one I'm at currently. It's only now that I feel like I've finally become more settled with who I am, but setting aside having a general process for what to do in the near term, I don't have any real sort of plan for the long term.
I say take life as it comes, make sure to assess if you're happy every so often, and don't stress out too much about making big shakeups if you're actually unhappy.

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