/ / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / /
Emptiness and Hollowness?
45 replies
1310 days old
last post: May 11, 2020
Return

Emptiness and Hollowness?

22 Name: Anonymous : 2019-11-24 00:54
>>21
It's no problem as I mentioned above that I'm trying to find a place that I can belong for the most part. It's something that I haven't experienced for a very long time in my life. I appreciate you taking the time to read my post and give me a reply to further bridge a connection with each other. Honestly, if I could work on some self-improvement and maybe left this area to start a new chapter in my life with a change of scenery maybe I might have a somewhat chance. But I have to battle these personal demons that have been plaguing me for decades of my life. Especially within the last 11 years. I'm not exactly sure what to do, but being more creative as well as participating in my hobbies as well can at least bring up my overall morale at home. I need to find an outlet to share these on as I'm not exactly looking for anything like "YouTube", etc. That's all behind me and echos of the past that I tried without ever bringing me any joy. I have a difficult time connecting with others as I'm "different" then most people generally. I also struggle with general small-talk as it's something I just cannot find any value in or point getting across. Ironically I love to talk about the weather and have actually offended others by doing so as it's the only form of small-talk I can accomplish. They think I'm being rude or a smartass with them when I have a unique authentic interest in it. I used to talk with others via IRC throughout the years but kind of stopped. I've been thinking about starting that up again as well. Mostly just discussing various things on the internet we'd come across, projects we were working on, video games, and anime back when I used to watch it religiously. I don't really find myself "bored" for the most part, but I definitely struggle with depression and feeling "useless" as well.

Return

Name:
/ / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / /