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Crippling loneliness
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Crippling loneliness

9 Name: Anonymous : 2019-11-18 16:18
Just like others in this thread so far, I too have found myself in complete isolation unable to really connect with other people any longer. Things have only been spiraling out of control and my depression is hitting levels I never thought were possible. I've even got to the point where I'm barely even eating anything. I've dropped almost 20 pounds in under two months, feeling constantly sick, and been going to the doctor just finding out I'm developing more and more health problems over the course of the last two years. I'm at a point where I just feel like giving up completely and that there's no point. I also feel trapped in the small town that I'm from. Never being able to leave due to the lack of jobs, needing transportation, which I've never been able drive, and the lack of any basic skills as my father never was around to teach me anything. I know that it probably sounds like excuses but I have been dealt a very shitty hand at life. I could go on about it for days, months, and even possibly years before getting my entire life story across. But it's a horror felt story being stuck in a place where you've experienced constant misery, loss, and the last remnants of hope sucked out of your soul. I've even tried to take my own life countless times. Everyday that passes I start to slowly regret more and more not taking my own life when I had a loaded handgun pointed at my skull. I broke down freaked out along with the police getting involved. I have no idea what to do, what direction to take, how to find anyone to connect with, to get over anxiety in the real world as well as online, to learn how to properly express myself, and eventually make my grand escape from this hellhole of a town that I've been stuck in my entire life.

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