I didn't have a proper coding project
Did they put you on the bench for a long time? What happened?
My first job was very demanding, on the other hand. The users of the application I worked on sat right next to me, so if things didn't work (at all, or just didn't provide a pleasant experience) they would (obviously) be kind of mad.
I've been called after hours even though it wasn't on my contract.
I can't decide which experience was worse...
Please keep going, it'll get better one way or another eventually.
I'm trying my hardest. Prepared some dev environment yesterday, I hope not to give up... although there's not much that'd make me keep going. Thanks for the encouragement, kind anon!