Just lost an old friend group, and it stings. It'll be lonely to spend nights on my own instead of in a voice call, but we've been drifting apart for a long time anyways.

I was way too self-conscious, so anytime I thought I was shrugged off or ignored, I'd get frustrated and depressed, while anytime I was approved of, I'd be overcome with this feeling of gratitude and happiness.

Wish I knew how to fix this. I can't tell when I'm accepted and can act like myself or when I'm not and need to act differently to keep my friendships intact.
Guess I can worry about it tomorrow.